Sorry for not posting for so long.. these few weeks has been mainly sad stuff.. never had the mood to post it up.. but now.. since i have nth to do.. i guess i shall share with u guys.. hopefully u are still checking out my blog once in a while..

Yup.. me and bel has become friends.. since a month plus ago i guess.. she has move on and have someone to look after her.. i find no need to be in her life other than a friend... though it's still kinda awkward when i go see Oreo .. but we try to remain as where we are when we see each other.. i dun have feelings for her anymore.. i was hurt enough .. i feel that i deserve someone better.. someone special..

Life in army still about the same.. life outside army was still alright..

sometimes i come to wonder.. have i been to hard on myself in making everyone around me happy.. have people really understand the amount of effort or even appreciate it.. i know when i do something.. i dun expect anything from them back.. but when it comes to her.. i just want to be loved by her..

She told me she needs me. but as a friend.. how much can a friend do.. how much can i offer my friendship to u ... i wonder.. i wonder whether whatever i have done is mainly for a friend, or becoz i love u .. i find it pointless sometimes to do some things but i still do it and hoping that it might make u happy.. in whatever way.. i love to see ur smile.. i love ur companion.. but do u even realise that i am really sincere and serious abt u ..

some of my friends say i am fickled-minded.. i change my target like i am desperate... some say i have change in person becoz of my life now.. i have no answer to that.. but all i know i am serious abt her.. even more than bel .. she's the sweetest thing in my life.. for now and maybe forever.. .

i can't possibly force myself to leave her life knowing that she needs me and i needs her.. even if it hurts me for waiting for her.. i just can't bare thinking of leaving her.. she has been there when i am in my darkest moment.. she had been there to enjoy lots of things with me.. she's like a soulmate to me..

i know i will be waiting for her.. for i dunno when will i collaspe.. tinking what if one day she doesnt needs me anymore.. what if she has a boyfriend .. what if she just want to stay as it is forever.. i really dunno..

all i know is to love her, care for her like i usually do.. hoping one day , just one day she will start to open her heart and let me in .. i just hope she come to realise that i am really deep in love with her...

-zW- patience wayne..

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!