Happi Chinese new year to everyone!!

Just came back from malaysia .. met all my aunties and uncles.. and even my nephew and niece.. gosh .. now i am really getting old.. i have got like ten nephews and nieces. whoa. though not everyone back at the hometown yet, but the kids have already rock the places with thier noises.

I'm glad that my aunties are happy and i really wish them to have healthy life and happiness .. my Da Gu especially.. i need to show her acheivement, she really wants to see me successful in life.. i love her so much and really hope she can see me married, get my degree.. and build my family.. she's kinda old but i really wants her to witness all my happiness..

just came back from darwin house too.. crowded.. with all my buddies and friends.. playing blackjack and mahjong.. wow.. it was really fun and entertaining with them around.. all the jokes and laughter make the house filled with the chinese new year atmosphere..

it's the starting of the new year.. i had told myself to move on without her.. i thought i could.. coz i have never fail to let go of girl when i wanted to.. but now.. i am struggling.. i couldn't let go .. i dunno why .. i just feel i need her by my side.. even when i tell myself it's over, in my heart i really wish that she's still by my side.. loving me.. i try v hard not to contact her.. but even so, it makes me missing her more in the end.. even if i occupied myself with things to do.. there are so many things that reminds me of her..

i really do not know what to do.. i called her yesterday .. telling her that i wanted to see oreo .. yes i miss oreo.. i want to play with oreo.. but i am missing her even more.. i just feel that i need to hug her.. wanted to be love by her again .. but yea.. all i can do is dream.. whenever i slp .. i always think of the happi times that we both had.. i wanted to have sweet dreams with her inside.. coz that's the only way to feel tt she's with me.. i am lousy i know.. i am trying hard.. v hard .. jiting tells me it takes time.. i just wonder how long..

but nevertheless, i still manage to spend my chinese new year happily.. seeing everyone enjoying themself already makes me happy.. and i hope things will get better for the rest of this year..

-zW- mo0o0o0

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!