yea.. is my second book out..

it's my dad birthday too.. so gave him a suprise by turning up for dinner .. haha.. he was happy.. so am i .. alright.. next week i having field camp.. shit.. better dun rain.. lol ..

came home den met up with shiwei and wen hao.. went to play bowling again.. yea.. i won again.. lol .. seems fun to play bowling.. though expensive but always enjoyable.. won't tink so much abt problems that i have..

yea.. treat her like a fren now.. sometimes dun even wan to call or sms her.. dunno why.. yes.. she is my motivation.. she helps me through my days.. but sometimes i juz wonder why am i doing all this to myself.. why muz i suffer becoz of her when she dun even care abt how i feel.. no point being so devoted when she doesn't even appreaciate at all.. i just be a fren to her ..

yes, motivation comes from her.. but i wun push over the line.. i dun wanna make myself into a state whereby my life depends on her..

OCS seems to be the choice.. but i am really very scare abt how it will affect my next 1 year.. it's going to be tough.. but i really do not know whether i will want that kind of life.. i dunno.. but seems like there is no other way out.. oh god.. give me some wisdom to make my choice..

sometimes i may be too selfish .. keep thinking abt myself.. nv consider abt other ppl feelings.. am i juz passing through motion by doing all this or do i really mean it.. i really dunno..

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!