2 Days to tekong

Who free on thursday? wanna go chalet? at tekong.. free food, lots of activities.. big chalet! sea view.. lol ..anyone interested pls call me.. lol ..

Yea.. she finally finish her exams.. happy for her.. den she went out with gary.. thought that they will talk things out.. so i din msg her. till around 10 plus.. she msg me saying that she is drinking at her fren hse. oh man.. she told me the date with gary din turn out so well .. i was wondering.. she told me she cried.. hais..

den i suggested driving her home.. so i went to pick her up at lakepoint condo.. she came down.. abit crazy .. den she told me that gary told her that. if she finds someone better , just go ahead.. i was thinking.. isn't this wad i said to bel.. oh gosh... i was also thinkng.. yea.. i am better.. lol .. come come.. but .. am i really better.. i am not sure.. so i drove her to spc to buy some water for her to freshen her up .. she ask me.. am i being very mean to you.. i was thking... in some way yes.. in some way .. not at all..

the things i've done for her is all on my accord.. she never force me to do it.. so she's not being mean to me..
but she's mean to me by keep telling me abt gary gary gary.. how are they .. wad happen to them .. din she realise that she hurts me by saying all those stuff.. i don't blame her.. coz she's unaware of it.. how i wish i can really take care of her.. i wan to love her openly.. telling her in the face i love her.. but i can't. i know in her heart is only abt him him and him .. there's no place for me at all .. yea. indeed .. i felt hurt.. u r such a meanie..

drove her home den i went back.. but decided to look for oreo .. went to bel hse.. play with oreo... getting naughtier each day.. then bel started to cry again .. hais.. i really think is my fault in causing all this unhappiness.. why the person u love doesn't even give a place to u while the person u wan to forget put u on the first place.. love is so complicated..

joyce.. i wanna tell u so much that i love u .. i love ur companion.. i love ur crazyness.. i love to take care of u .. but i have no chance at all.. i am going in army.. worse than any situaiton.. after i go in .. i lost the right to take care of u .. lost the right to be there for u .. lost the right to contact u thru out the day .. all i can do is spend a few mins to sms u .. in a day..

some of my frens said, what if u get her.. can u take care of her.. make her happy , while u were in army.. i was thinking.. yea.. not much difference with gary.. however, i am different.. at least whenever i have the chance to talk to u , sms u , or even find u .. i will.. i want you to feel loved.. not neglected.. but that's a selfish thought.. i tink u suffered enough.. that's why i can't force myself to tell u how i feel .. it's always right at the tip of my mouth but i know u don't deserve anymore unhappiness and problems..

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chunhui: i go army den u have to listen to the same old song everytime until i book out! lol

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!