.Friday, October 03, 2008 ' 5:58 AM Y
pon...and...zi
less than a week left.. i still have not make up my decision whether wad to do .. how i wish she could just read it from my blog.. den i wouldn't need to tink that much..
well ..
current situation is..
i have less than a week left before i go in army..
she is still having her exams till monday
she has gary ..
but i wan to know whether she have feelings for me...
i am really not sure wad to do..
if i ask too late den in the end i will suffer in army..
if i ask today den i am afraid i will make the wrong choice..
i really dunno wad to do..
i love her companion.. love sms-ing her.. love being loved and cared by her..
do i just need another person juz becoz i am single ..
i dun tink so.. if i just need someone, i could have bel.. or xm..
but i wan joyce..
2nd thing.. if she accepted me, how am i able going to give her happiness..
i am being unfair to her as i am in army.. she would not get the attention she wans..
plus, she still have gary in her heart.. mayb i am just a replacement for her.. i really dunno..
but whatever it is.. i dun expect the ending to be good.. no matter what, i will not be abe to enjoy my 2 weeks of confinement in army.. coz i know.. i will be missing her.. if she reject me, i will be heartbroken inside my camp.. so hell it is..
i really wans to know whether she have feeling for me.
or issit she just likes me as a friend..
or she likes me but never intend to be with me..
or she is just using me to make gary jealous..
when am i going to ask her.. i dunno either.. i wish i could get the answer faster.. but she's having exams.. i dun wan to be selfish and make her think abt it while she is stress with her exams..
but if i ask too late.. , no matter what she say won't be fruitful..
so i guess it's over.. i tink i'll just start be prepared for the worst..
she have rejected me before anyway.. so one more doesn't make any difference..
how i wish i can tink that way.. but i really do love her and wants to take care of her..
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hi xiu... =)
kaixin... don't be funny ar..
