.Sunday, September 28, 2008 ' 2:57 AM Y
pon...and...zi
Shit man, dun wanna count down the days to army but when it comes to the end of the day, i will start wondering how much days i've left. ok..
11 DAYS!
shit. lol .. i wanna go watch F1 ! must go.. dun care.. go alone also must go , rarely got chance to watch. oh ya.. tml i will be getting a new com! hopefully! haha. new desktop! yea.. u guys must be wondering why i going in army still wan to get a new desktop.. ok.. sorry lappy, u have been sick for so long and it's time for desktop to replace lappy. haha
ok .. emo part.. sorry if u dun like to read, but the reason i added u guys is becoz i know u guys will understand and read and console me mayb .. haha.. hmm.. been drinking these few days.. almost like everyday, ok.. i dun drink much coz i dun wanna get drunk.. i just feel like drinking when i tink of her.. hais.. some more i going in army.. no much time to settle the problem.. mayb it's not a problem at all.. it's just me being nonsense to fall for her again.. i realy dunno.. but i really like the feeling of being with her..
lobster msg me and ask me whether have i forget abt my ex.. why suddenly i like her...
all i can tell her is i have already long forget abt bel.. as she have really really disappoint me.. yes, though bel may be waiting for me.. but i knoww we will never be together again.. i dun see myself being with her again anymore. as for joyce.. yea... some of u may think is becoz i am going in army and i need someone.. i can tell u no.. it's not a crush, not tt i need someone.. it's just that i really do have feelings for her.. i really wanna take care of her when gary doesn't wan to .. mayb like jonathan says i am just a rebound for joyce.. mayb when gary is not giving attention to her den she will turn to me.. i dun mind.. i rather she treat me this way then ignore me totally... which may happen if i am going to tell her my feelings..
jt told me that i shudn't drag this as when i go into army i will be suffering from it.. but , how do u wan me to salvage this problem.. do i just let it go.. i want to spend my days with her before my army comes.. yea.. sad...
