i left freaking 9 more days before going into army.. ARGH.. shit.. time really flies.. i have yet finish my thesis for my graduation.. lol .. dun intend to do.. so many words.. it's killing me..

today went KBOX with darwin, alan, lian hong and shiwei.. sing till we all throat pain.. last song.. we sing peng you. lol.. stand together.. sing together.. really going to miss the times i have with them when i enter army.. although we will still be frens.. but won't be able to go out as much as usual le.. well .. enjoyed my times.. now looking forward to army. lol. not really

she has start her first day of exams.. what i heard from her is that she's not doing really well.. not really sure.. hopefully everything is alright..

today she told me that Gary has not been giving enough attention to her.. not treating her as how he used to.. what does Gary actually wans.. why don't he just treasure what he has.. he shouldn't be contented about it and just neglect her feelings..

i bet she's feeling really terrible .. some more is her exams.. i really dunno wad to do.. i cant let my feelings be heard... she's having her exams and i am going in army.. what a bad combo for the days ahead.. just wan to see her happy before i go in army.. her smiles is enough to go in army with no troubles

Wo0Ho0.. Watch F1 just now.. it was freaking loud and fast. Luckily i went down and watch, if not i will regret it. It was so loud that everytime a car went pass, i could feel my ear drums screaming for help. lol ..

Me , shiwei, wen hao , guan soon went down to watch.. but only me and shiwei interested. lol

GUESS WAD! i am using my new desktop blogging now! YEA! lol .. bought it for ard 1 k. the specs not bad.. got 5 year warranty.. haha. i am so satisfied with this com. my lappy days are over!

10 days remaining!! ARGH!! someone pls stop the time.. i am going crazy just by counting down. shit man. i am not worried abt going, i am worried that i will miss her badly. gosh.. i will become crazy man.. that bloody 2 weeks of confinement sure will kill me.. sob...

i have a great time talking and msg-ing with her today.. i hope everyday can at least be like this.. but when army days come.. forget abt even talking on phone for long. not even sms-ing for long.. guess i'll just have to suffer..

Shit man, dun wanna count down the days to army but when it comes to the end of the day, i will start wondering how much days i've left. ok..

11 DAYS!

shit. lol .. i wanna go watch F1 ! must go.. dun care.. go alone also must go , rarely got chance to watch. oh ya.. tml i will be getting a new com! hopefully! haha. new desktop! yea.. u guys must be wondering why i going in army still wan to get a new desktop.. ok.. sorry lappy, u have been sick for so long and it's time for desktop to replace lappy. haha

ok .. emo part.. sorry if u dun like to read, but the reason i added u guys is becoz i know u guys will understand and read and console me mayb .. haha.. hmm.. been drinking these few days.. almost like everyday, ok.. i dun drink much coz i dun wanna get drunk.. i just feel like drinking when i tink of her.. hais.. some more i going in army.. no much time to settle the problem.. mayb it's not a problem at all.. it's just me being nonsense to fall for her again.. i realy dunno.. but i really like the feeling of being with her..

lobster msg me and ask me whether have i forget abt my ex.. why suddenly i like her...
all i can tell her is i have already long forget abt bel.. as she have really really disappoint me.. yes, though bel may be waiting for me.. but i knoww we will never be together again.. i dun see myself being with her again anymore. as for joyce.. yea... some of u may think is becoz i am going in army and i need someone.. i can tell u no.. it's not a crush, not tt i need someone.. it's just that i really do have feelings for her.. i really wanna take care of her when gary doesn't wan to .. mayb like jonathan says i am just a rebound for joyce.. mayb when gary is not giving attention to her den she will turn to me.. i dun mind.. i rather she treat me this way then ignore me totally... which may happen if i am going to tell her my feelings..

jt told me that i shudn't drag this as when i go into army i will be suffering from it.. but , how do u wan me to salvage this problem.. do i just let it go.. i want to spend my days with her before my army comes.. yea.. sad...

12 days to Army!

Oh no .. just this 12 more days and i am dead.. lol
from what i know, i will end up in Company A,B,C or D.
They told me C is the worse.. as in the toughest.. well. should i pray for easy or challenging?

F1 weekend! yea.. i've been watching F1 since i was in primary school.. now they are finally in singapore, but i do not know whether can i get a glimpse of them in action. hopefully i can get to see and experience..

LOBSTER! DON'T TELL THIS TO UR COUSIN!

Talk to her on the phone yesterday, hmm . she was not really entertained by me.. rather i feel that she juz talk to me for the sake of talking to me.. what she wans is to talk to Gary i suppose.. i dun like being third party, i tink is not even consider as a third party as i am just hiding behind her quietly. i can't even let her know my feelings, coz i tink she is really in love with Gary.

When she told me about Gary msg-ing another gal, i was thinking how can he treat her like this.. he shouldn't be hiding all this things from her. i felt angry, however, at the other hand, happy. happy that u came to me and ask for advice, taking me as a listener. but i guess i am just these roles in ur life.

Am i praying for them to break-up? actually the answer is no.. i can feel that she wans to have a long-lasting, happy and beautiful relationship with him. that's why every advice i gave her is really impartial, i did not biased against Gary, in some way i helped him.. i really dunno what to do..

mayb i really deserve all this pain, all this retribution. it's really time for me to enter army.
when i see u that morning, it really makes my day, when u care for me, i feel so loved. when u r not around, i miss u badly. but all boils down to one conclusion, i am just having a one-sided love.
mayb this is enuff.. i tink i really will miss u when i go in army.

-zW- NS pls BRAINWASH ME!

14 more days to Army.

New Life
New Blogskin
New Link

I chose this skin is becoz it really relate to how i feel right now..
i wanna tell her that i love her but i know that's not possible.

Secondly, is becoz both Pon & Zi is BOTAK . lol.. and i am going to be one too.. so.. lol..

anyway, i change new link is becoz is only for ppl who i believe i can share my feelings with=)

Enjoy
Any one wanna me to link pls tag den=)

Well-a you done done me

And you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks and now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out I'll be giving it my bestest

And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention

I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Mmmmhmmm-Mmmmhhmmm, Mmmmmhmmm(Heeeeey heeeey)

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

I look into your heart and you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment, people dance and sing

We're just one big family

And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm sure

There's no need to complicate, our time is short

This is our fate, I'm yours

(Scatting)Do you want to come on?

Scooch on over closer dear, I'll whisper in your ear

Wo-ooo-o-oh who-oo-o-o-oh

Oh yes love, love love love love love

Love you love, love you love

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I be saying is there ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons

It's what we aim to do, our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Open up your mind and see like me(I won't hesitate)

Open up your plans and damn you're free(No more, no more)

I look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours(It cannot wait, I'm sure)

So please don't, (please don't, please don't)

There's no need(There's no need to complicate)

There's no need to complicate(Our time is short)

'Cause our time is short(This is our fate)

This is oh, this is oh, this is our fateI'm yo-o-o-o-ooo-ours

Ahhh

In less than a month, i will be going in for army..

Yea, getting a bit emo here.. i am absolutely fine with going in army but with the problems currently in hand. i am afraid that i will soon be suffering..

There are many choices in life... which one to choose and which one not to is not as easier as 1+1

i'm really troubled.. so many choices in front of me.. but none seems favourable

one of the road , isn't fruitful at all at the back of the road.
one of the road, totally not easy to walk as i do not know what's at the end
one of the road, which is making a U-turn but knowing things will never change
one of the road, walking alone admiring the scenery but can't take a part of it.

lastly, should i just walk onto a road which doesn't need an ending.

after so much , i tink it's really time to make a decision. i dun wanna carry this problem on my back anymore. i dun wan to behave so selfish anymore. i have walk onto the wrong path, hurting all the people in process.

i shud just stop all the nonsense, not pulling them down with me.

Since, i am going in army, i dun tink i am being fair to anyone if i were to continue.
i deserve to bear this consequences. i deserve to suffer this ending. i dun wan to let it affect anyone anymore.

-YzW- why did i choose that path which i know was never the right one

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!