19th Aug 2008.

If we are still together, we will be celebrating 1 year together.

u sms me and tell me to find some one better.
den u call me and ask me whether do i wan u back.
i know u are drunk.
i know i have hurt u.
but like u said, it's over.

when you tell me that u din tell me those things when we are together, i was really feeling so pissed. coz ur few words just destroy the 11months of being together with u.

u make me feel that the relationship we have is not really fascinating at all. just becoz u told me the truth only yesterday. after that.. i tink mayb it's really over.

i couldn't find any excuse or reason to make myself trust u again.
since u wan to destroy ur life, go ahead. go back to ur old life. i couldn't care less anymore.
you don't love yourself , why do i need to love u .

i have love you deeply , but now, u r a different gal to me.. totally different. i don't know you at all. you r no longer the gal i once love most.

u din cherish me at all, u din consider abt my feelings at times. u betrayed my trust.
for those reason, i could have left u .
but it's only for wad u are doing now, i am really leaving you.

still
i am sorry that i have make u lose so much things, maybe even ur frens.
i am sorry that i have hurt u
i am sorry that i din stay by ur side forever
i am sorry that i have really break ur heart

we are really from two different world, i always deny that and that's my fault.

but u din give me a chance when u chose not to tell me so much abt ur past which as a bf i shud know.

you said i shud find some one better, and hopefully u do that as well.

since i am going army, and i will move on from there. you move on from urs as well.
learn how to let go

take care. .

-YzW- It's Over

i'm feeling so troubled rite now..

i got myself into a situation.. one that i never want to enter..

i just want a simple life..

why are people in my life making so difficult for me..

why can't i be selfish and hack care abt all of u ...

why do i have to put all of u infront of myself..

why issit that i need to take the hit instead of u ppl..

there's no much explaination.. but.. i just love u ppl more than myself..
i always want to get the best for u ppl.. i want u ppl to live ur life meaningfully..
but i dunno how much can i hold on..
all of u are my love ones..
those that i can give my life for..
i just want to pray to God that you guys can treasure your lives..
live it the correct way.. stay happy.. the smile on all ur faces always makes me feel that i have accomplish my goal of enhancing all of ur lives..
but human nature is just so cruel.. all of u always expect more..
i dunno how much more i can offer.. i may collapse one day..
i don't even know whether my happiness have been rob..
i am not an angel.
i am not a genius.
i have countless problem in my head as well.

i have been always acting strong in front of everyone.
coz i always believe that i can solve every single problem that comes to me.
but sometimes i wonder am i being too strong-headed..
am i actually a weak person which just try to be strong.
i feel weak at times.. times when i feel that i am just standing beside the cliff.
life is full of choices.. and i have made lots and lots of decisive choices..
but there is always more to come.

can i really take it? i just wants to clear my mind. live like a small children with no problems.
but i know it's impossible..
i will hold on..
i believe in myself.
so all my love ones. believe in me.

-YzW- believe

anyone knows the meaning of PIU? lol.. actualli it's a arcade game.. lol .. pump it up.. something like DDR.. but got 5 buttons instead of 4..

oh man.. i wasn't really interested till xin man call me to try.. den i get addicted to it.. ok .. not really addicted but have fun playing it la. lol... learn lots of stuns ..wahhaha... it's easy to attract crowd playing that..

easier than playing the shoot bball with darwin.. but.. i still need lots of practice and time to become a pro.. will i be able to do it? lol.. God knows..

Well.. these few days have been quite weird.. becoz i go home everyday early.. yea.. dad keep calling me to go home early.. well .. being a good son not to let my parents worry .. i have to do so .. lol .. my human clock is back to normal.. meaning i slp at night play in the day.. previously was play in the night slp in the day .. wahahaha ..

darwin going to taiwan tml.. dun go touch gals k .. don't think got ten second rule den u safe le hor.. lol.. wait u cannot come back den u know.. lol .. darwin mei you le!!

recently just went clubbing with jiting, he's still botak. lol . went drinking with him .. wahahah ... talk with him .. telling my problems and he gave me answers to my problem.. not really answers but advice and suggestion..

thought i go home early recently.. still did go out with zhen guang and have supper.. hmm .. guess he needs company now as jason went in army le.. no more supper kaki with him .. lol ..well.. i dun mind being a replacement.. coz i always get hungry at night .. lol .. mayb later msg him ask him wan go nort

hmm .. pass my Napfa with flying colours.. lol

Pull-up - 3
2.4km - 4
standing broad jump -5
situp- 5
sit and reach - 5
shuttle run -5

total 27/30 GOLD.. lol

din know i still can do so well after i never train at all .. ok .. mayb there's still some bits and pieces of muscle left in me.. haha.. better keep that with me if not i will look like a bamboo soon...

but.. since i am going army soon.. yea.. muscle will be back.. awww.. army.. stupid thing.. argh..

yup.. i am single now.. broke off with baby.. tough decision but life is full of choices .. it takes thr right path towards success in life but it takes just one wrong step to live with regrets.. wad eva it is.. we shall see.. i not really sure yet. but things are definitely going to be better as i really wants to meet my plans that i have for myself for the next 10 years.. lol ..

-YzW- PIU ! improve improve!

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!