.Wednesday, March 19, 2008 ' 12:53 AM Y
pon...and...zi
today suppose to be a good day to start with.. but yet i am going to blog how these few weeks have been bad for me..
My attachment at hotel went all wrong.. my relationship with my managers are so bad that i dont think they will write anything good in the logbook for me. actually i dun care much abt what they write.. but .. i just feel so lost of myself when i am working.. i have totally no motivation to work.. none of them there inspire me at all.. my manager said this to me. ' you are not fit to be in the F&B line' . i got so frustrated over these few words.. even feel like crying.. from young till now.. i always believe so much in myself.. to let my manager said this insulting words to me.. i feel so not myself.. when i put in effort.. they are not appreciative... when i was unable to save their ass.. they blast their voice through my face as though i am at fault.
My eyes have been giving me problem .. it might be allergic to oreo.. i can't bare to sell him away.. after so much effort me n baby have put in .. but my eyes.. the problem seems to be serious.. hopefully nothing goes wrong.. please don't put me in this kind of situation.. i really dun like the feeling when i have two choices but none are positive.
today is me n baby 7th month .. was so happy that we have come so far.. all the things we done.. all the things we been through.. all the problems we tackled. was suppose to be by my baby side.. but i guess she's tired and worried abt my eyes.. tt's why i couldn't go over..
went to chalet with my secondary frens.. all still so lively.. all full with ambition.. all happily cheerfully talking to one another.. i feel so happy for them.. though the lame jokes still lies around.. but i can see the maturity that they have perform.
what abt myself.. what's my plan .. sometimes i just sit down and ponder abt the things that is going to happen in future for my life.. and i ponder what will happen if i do this and that.. i just wish life could be a bit easier.. things seems to grow heavier on my shoulder.. sometimes i just dun have time to breathe..
things will turn out for the better.. hopefully..
emo-ing away .. *****
-YzW- bought something for u baby.. but couldn't give u on 12mn =/
