Hmm .. u guys must be wondering why i am troubled.. i dunno either... mayb i am just thinking too much..

so what's the issue about..? is just that i am afraid to become the old self of me.. where by i become selfish again .. and did not care abt her feelings.. i dun wan to become the old self of me.. but the signs are showing mayb .

she was tired yet i ask her to accompany me longer.. hais.. such a wrong thing to do .. i shud have let her go home and rest.. am i being selfish ? i guess i am .. think i have to tell myself to be a understanding bf.. i love her.. but mayb i just do not know how to understand my gf.. i need to i know.. i'll try ..

wonder sometimes am i forcing her to do things ... i dun wish that to happen .. all i want is my gf to feel happy.. feel comfortable with me.. if i am forcing her to do things she dun feel like doing.. tt shows that i am not attaining my objective.

i guess sometimes is i miss her too much , tt's why i really want to spend more times with her. i know we have umpteen time in the future.. but i really wish to spend all my time with her.. not considering the fact that she got so much things to do.. yet i still occupy her time. i have to tell myself i need to understand her..

i suppose i have acheive my goal of trusting my gf.. compare to last time, i dun really probe much into what she does.. i trust her.. but when come to the understanding part.. i tink i really need to tell myself to be understandin.. yes.. it's hard to understand someone.. but i will try my best coz i really cherish this relationship so much . for her and myself.. i know need to do it..

dear.. just wanna tell u i'm sorry .. u were tired yet u have to accompany me.. pls forgive the selfish me.. i will try my best to understand u better k ! =)

-YzW- u r my baby always..

Haha. 17/8/07

o0ps.. been so long since i last blog.. sorrie everyone.. not tt i was busy .. but it's just tt i am lazy .. =x .. haha .. okie.. so for this post i am going to update things tt have been happening since my first day of school in HDHM .. erm.. not everyday la.. lol..

July

HDHM - there is only 17 of us!! luckily there are familiar faces , so easier to find someone to hang ard with

Stupid thing is tt the modules are getting tougher.. no tips for test and exam!! argH!! lol.. but hopefully i can do well la.. hehe..

No more banquet life.. life seems much more lively .. haha.. more time for me to do my things.. no more faitgue!! haha.. now full of energy .. i hope.. lol.. still been slping late everyday..

My 19th birthday - hmm.. have mixed feelings during tt span of 2 days.. 21st of July and 22nd which is my bdae.. on the 21st of july.. i planned to go out with this particular gal.. but in the end she went out with her bf.. i admit tt at tt time i was interested with her.. but after tt day .. when everything go so wrong for me in particular to relationship.. i tink i shud give up .. mayb i am just a third party. ppl who knows me well know tt i dun like to be the third party.. nor am i a person who break up ppl .. so i was sad on tt day la.. tt gal din even say happi birthday to me when i met her for a while.. haha..

However, i met up all my frens, buddies.. and i treat them to eat.. -.-" lol.. tt's our tradition.. but i dun mind la.. they accompied me thru my bdae.. 12 am to 4 am like tt.. we were playing.. and they gave me a adidas watch=) .. hmm .. if i am not wrong the ppl were , ws and wen wen, zg, jt , wh, sw and his gf.. kaixin was there too .. and sw bro also dere.. i think tt's abt all ? lol... oh ya.. jason also there.. haha.. but left early la.. lol.. despite the earlier incident.. lucky my frens were there for me lor.. hehe..

ya.. but sadly to say i was still feeling unhappy .. having tt sort of incident happening on my bdae.. well .. tt night i was too tired to think abt it and i just go n slp lor.. later tt day .. i met up with bel.. haha.. she said she wanted to treat me to eat ma.. she sort of book me 1st ba.. lol.. somemore nobody book me also .. lol.. i met her up at cine and she pass me a wallet.. Bruan Buffel la.. damn ex lor.. den we went to buy movie tix.. and went to eat ding tai feng. haha.. ppl who dunno her will immediately says she is rich rite? lol... tt's what i feel too .. after our 'lunch'.. when we went back to cine.. i found out tt i lost the movie tix.. den i was so lost la.. den bel was laughing away .. make me embarressed only .. haha.. no la.. in the end i bought another 2 tix..=( .. which have the 'best view' according to bel.. haha .. Harry Porter.. many ppl say not nice but i find it not bad la.. haha.. after that bel need to met up with her frens den i went home lor..

My family bought a cake and celebrate with me.. den i go out and celebrate with my 4e6 peeps again .. haha .. Ben , Jt (<- again him!) chun hui , kx .. haha.. den after that my bdae finish ..lol.. Hmm .. love all the presents la.. i got a new bag as well .. haha.. actually i pay half of it la.. lol.. den .. erm..

Actually was quite sad on 21st of july.. but credit to bel.. she lifts up my birthday la.. haha.. becoz of her my 19th birthday wasn't going to be a sad one .. dunno why.. haha.. thanks alot to her ..=)

August

kinda of busy month for me.. have 4 testin two weeks.. many projects to rush .. this and that.. wa lao .. but no choice la.. i just need to organise my time well and there shud not be any problem .. haha.. k la.. august issues i free den blog k .. =x hands and eyes tired le..

-YzW- take care everyone! =)

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!