Today is my off day and i spent 12 hrs slping.. wahahah .. but on monday .. i spent 17hr straight working.. how xiong rite? lol .. tml have to work again . .but hopefully times passes as fast as possible..

Well.. just wanna share some sad or shud i say deserving stories of what happened to me in the past..

As to be said, one's life are full of choices, making it right or wrong is totally up to u .. everyday, choices will turn to u and make u choose them .. and if u taken a wrong step .. that's it. Each one of us sumtimes will look back and regret what things they have done.. as i look back .. the most regretful incident is what i have done wrong with my 1st relationship .

She's splendid with all it needs to be someone's gf.. but someone like me, have nv know the word of cherish. She's is loyal to me, yet i doubt her. She is faithful, yet i turn to others. She loved me with all her heart yet i neglected her. Though i am at the age of 15 when i started this relationship with her, i should have been matured enuff to cherish and understand how she feels

Only to find fault with her.. thinking that what she offers is nv enuff.. doubt her and in the end .. it was me who is in the wrong.. nv have i feel that she is right or i am wrong.. i always thought i am the superior among us two.. i gave up on this relationship twice.. she still cling on it when i left her..

But these kind of things always come back and haunt u .. i still kept the love letters she wrote for me.. that night.. just a few months back .. i read with shock .. with regrets .. with shame all ard my face.. thru the letter, i started to realise that how much she gave into the relationship.. how much she loves me when we were together.. she was like a superb gf that anyone can expect.. but i let her down.. now i feel so regret .. i gave her so much hopes of how long the relationshipp will last. but yet i dashed the hopes when i thought she is not my type of gal..

3 years have past.. and she is getting with her life.. she is in poly and shud be with a bf that is nv someone like me.. i wonder what will it be like if we are still together now.. how loving can we be.. but all that are just imagination and i couldn't make myself think any further.. all i have in my mind is sorry .. sorry for letting u down .. sorry for all the false hopes.. sorry for being so self centered and make u tolerate my high ego.. i would definitely feel better if u scolded or hit me right now.. but being ur character.. i tink u would have let it past..

3 years.. yet i could not forgive myself for doing this to u .. our 1 year of relationship is like a game to me.. but for u .. is a 1 year of hell with me.. i ruin ur time.. ur effort , ur love .. bastard am i to do all those stupid things to u .. nobody really knows what happen btw us.. but u keep it to urself and suffer from it.. i really do not know how to forget abt what happen in the past.. is not tt i am asking u to forgive me.. but i just want to llet u know i am truely sorry ..

mayb tt's why i am currently a failure in relationship.. coz mayb God knows i've been bad.. for u .. u deserve a more loving and caring bf.. i tink u have one.. this post is just for me to apologise and telling everyone who read my blog abt how i ill-treated u .. how bastard i am to betray ur love.. i dunno whether will u read my blog.. but if u do read.. i am sorry .. i know just a sorry wouldn't mean much .. but at least let me have a chance to apologise to u ..

when i remember how caring u can be.. making a pillow me.. hurting urself in the process.. remembering times when u were behind me when i am down .. remembering how we gossip abt others.. when i start to recall all this.. i finally realise that i have done and make the stupiest choice of my life.. how i regret it .. but i should be punish for what i have done.. once again .. really sorry to u .. hope btw us there is still friendship.

-YzW- sorry .. =(

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!