hais.. not a way to start a day , with man u losing to arsenal.. .y.. .y can't juz things go happy for me... i dun wan to feel like this.. everything so sux.. what can i do to change all this.. i like what jiting say ..? karma? hais.. if really so .. den i would suffer this karma for more than 2 years.. mayb even more than 5.. wad the hell i wrong with my life... i need support.. i really think i need.. i no longer strong enuff to tell myself i am capable.. i no longer can say i am zhengway , the confident one.. everything's change.. everything is different..

who can lift me up .. though i am a high ego guy .. but i truely know i am going down the slope .. emo-in now.. mayb i shud be labelled e emo-king in class man.. though i dn show it.. but deep down i know.. i always know that i am suffering from all this thoughts.. hope is always given to me but in the end things just happen within seconds and hope is all gone.. why .. is so painful and i dun wish things to be going this way .. mayb i have lost my vision.. my goals.. i m just going for things that is just temporal..

how can i tell mysel i am able.. how to lift myself up .. how to be a optimistic person .. how to accept failure and striv for success.. all i can think now is failure after failure.. not confident to try .. just hoping luck will come one day . i know this is not what i wan to be.. depend on luck .. but i see things go opposite of what i wan each and everytime .. i suddenly realise that i shud juz accept my fate .. but what is fate ? definition of fate is a bad word to use when things go wron? bastard in relationship , stuck up in character , bad tempered. .all the bad ajective u can tink of mostly can descibe me.. so what shud i use on myself? still seaching in the dictionary for a v ultimate negative word.. anyone who know can tag it.. i dun mind.. i understand myself..

-YzW- no longer capable..

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!