Just feel like sharing with my friends what my ideal girl is like. lol.. yah .. ideal..

Ideal Girl

- Loves me
- Understand me
- Needs me
- Care for me (occasionally)
- Share her secrets with me
- Trust me
- Have her own opinion
- Presentable
- Watch soccer with me, or at least let me watch.lol
- Know my mood
- Know my personality
- Never show me attitude
- Never controls ME
- Share each other interest
- LOL !! a lot rite? most imptly

FEELINGS
even if the girl have all the above but i have no feelings towards her. i dun dare to take on the relationship.

Actually... if i really do love a girl. v deeply,
i am willing to give up my commitments for her.
such as watching my fav soccer matches, playing com games
If she needs me , i'll be there for her.
However, she too must understand me eh.. i believe relationship is a give and take issue.
There must be trust in between though it takes lots of thought to get it right.

I must say, there is only one gal which only can make me feel crazy about her.
But, being crazy is one thing, winning her heart is another. I think friends is as far as she wants to go.

Sometimes i don't understand my feelings, crushes confuse me... but when it comes to true love. I experience quite a no. of times.

True love (my defination)

If i don't see her for a long time, or i forget the existance of her.
But when i see her again, the inside emotional feeling suddenly rekindle agian.
The girl can make me give up doing things i like.
I will get excited when i recieve a sudden sms from her, and i make sure she get my reply
When i see her in person , i talk things that is unnecessary
When she smiles or tease me, i enjoy it.
I always feel that i need her every now ad then.

Is not easy to find the right partner that is going to last long with you.
Nowadays, relationship ends shortly unless one is committed and the love is still going strong.
Is hard for me to say 'will you stead with me' or 'be my gf' if i am unsure about the relationship
Crushes do makes me confuse but when it come to getting into a relationship, i am sure those crushes will not misled me.
I feel that i know who's the girl i love.
I may be wrong to close the door to other girls, but i just want to be fair to everyone as i do not want to hurt anyone unnecessarily.

I predict i will be single for quite some time.. lol.. as the girl i love will never be with me.
I always sees it as a normal thing as being single is also a great life.

-YzW- ideal girl? wadeva.. feelings is what i count on.

Wo0... yi was right! i only blog once a week.. =x.. wahaa... no time la.. and sometimes lazy to log in .. yup .. last friday was Zhenguang 18th birthday . And we went to MOS to celebrate for him . It was his long awaited time to go clubbing man .. wonder after that day , he likes to club ma.. lol ... if he does, hope he doesn't jio me to go every week man ... wahhaha.. but that day was a superb nite for me i guess..

I finish my driving lesson and went to pick up a spare hp from ercong hse.. uRgh . .phone spoil again .. so have to lend from er cong lor. . haha .. after that .. jiting called and say meet at je and go together to city hall and meet up with zg and the rest.. lol .. As usual .. both of us met late .. haha .d.en we took a train to city hall ...

Pearly , ben and marilyn was already there with Zg.. together with weisiong and wen hao , jinhong.. den pearly ben and marilyn leave le lor.. den we keep persuading ws to go with us.. he at first did not want to go as he has work the next day . In the end.. he say , aiya .. go la go la.. lol ..

So after a while... lianhong join us too.. together with jason , eugene and jonathan coming even later.. but there was huge bunch of us ... zg called some of his poly frens too .. so there was quite a lot of ppl there. So we enter MOS to club.. wo0h00 .. zg was so excited man .. wahaha .. after that.. we wanna find seats.. but normally all booked.. so hack la.. we get ourselve some berr at 7 elven near by .. den get the complimentary drink .. after that.. Get In The Cage! whahaha.. then all the 1st timer din know wad to do .. lol.. but they slowly gel in ...

Jiting as usual was the predator! wahaha ... within seconds, he was gone.. lol... we met alywin there too .. after that , we start to lose everyone.. dunno where's everyone... den we slowly call , find and search and finally we were outside MOS again... Jonathan brought a Black label .. so i just took a shot.. din know how much did the rest take.. haha

after.. we went in agian .. and this time round .. woah .. all in the cage.. lol .. and we were dancing ard.. and we have this four gals .. and .. ... ... .. .. . i dunno wad to say .. lol... there was this pretti looking one.. lol.. but found out she was 21.. wahaha.. but who cares abt age man .. so i just dance with her and the rest dance with the frens la..

The girls den left and we also leave.. only jiting inside still !!!! =X .. after that.. we went ard the club.. dancing at the main arena too .. for just a short while.. time flies fast.. so we went home .. and i was tired.. zZzz.. next day have 3 on 3 competiiton...

-The next day-

Met up with alan and jinhong .. went t suntec and compete the 3 on 3 competition.. reach there and have our breakfast.. den found out that we are playing the 1st game.. we were placed in grps and there are ard 30 teams.. in order to qualify for the quarter final.. we must top the grp .. which means cannot lose any of the 3 fixtures with the other teams in our grp..

The 1st game was pretty ok , the opponent were not strong.. but we played damn lousy .. but still win la.. by a small margin .. after that.. our next game was like 4 hrs away .. so we went for lunch .. and came back to the court and observe our opponent.. haha .. So the second game comes.. we were DOWN by 4 point when half time reach .. it was 4-0 .. lol .. after that .. we organise ourself and we eventually edge out 5-7 .. haha.. so eventually we top our grp and went into top 8 .. den .. hais.. disppointing play again .. and out we go from the tournament.. lol .. went home ..

later man u vs chelsea.. all the best man u .. must win!!!

-YzW- memories..

Jiting's bbq for those who finish the A's .. lol.. such as Jin hong and Alan.. not forgetting marilyn. haha.. there's a huge turn up for the bbq.. me and jiting went to collect beehoon , satays.. and many more item s... so heavy when only both of us carry those things to jason hse.. the bbq is held near jason hse..

I reach there with alan at ard 6 plus .. and there is quite a no. of them there le. they have already start the fire and eat the beehoon with curry . lol.. i ate only a little..
There were lianhong, jiting , zhenguang, pearly, benedict, weisiong, yi xin , guan soon ,wen hao, jonathan , marilyn , jin hong , alan , joyce, shahibu , jensen , jason . that's basically all of them ba.. hope i din left out anyone of them ... haha...

we eat, play card, talk jokes and bbq... there is quite a no. of alcoholic liquors there.. wahaha.. i brought one Vodka there too.. haha.. basically nothing much to say .. coz bbq is eat play talk only ma..

hmm .. hais.. just feeling so miserable after yesterday .. regret doing something in front of her.. or even telling her.. really.. at that point of time.. i din tink much .. i thought she wouldn't have notice.. but .. hais... i wan to stop le.. no more for me... i wan to listen to wad she says.. i just feel that chances are there.. but yet i screw it up again ... and it was like so damn sad.. everything was cool at 1st.. mayb i tink too much again .. i know i always never gonna cross tt line..

feel so remorseful right now.. plus the guilt tt i have done agianst jiting.. wad the hell man .. why i seem to always mess up things man.. let me have a complete change.. a change that i will undergo being a different person.. coz i tink the way i am now makes everyone unhappy.. hais..

anyway . Alan.. Happy 18th Birthday!

-YzW- i want u .. but it seems so impossible...

wahahaha... still cannot find one blogskin to my liking... i am not choosy k .. just dun have the blogskin that i tink suit my blog and my style.. lol ... hmm .. been quite busy nowdays.. so nv blog.. yi scolding me liaoz.. one week one update! not enuff rite? lol... try la hor... not easy to come to blogger.com everyday and wrtie essay .. lol ..=x

Recently been preparin all the projs and doing all the test..hais.. so busy ? quite actually.. have to keep all the details in the head so that nothing will be left out.. haiyo.. busy yet not completed yet. still got quite some time to go man .. project dued coming . All the things need to chiong and get completed..

still staying up late.. duno why cannot slp .. sianz... next day tired.. so bored.. everytime in class.. struggling .. mustn't fall asleep .. lol ... yah.. sometime made it.. sometime din. .lol .. dun care la.. today got back my transcript.. got GPA = 3.63 ... increase by 0.03 .. lol .. still not satisfied la.. hais... thot will end higher.. nvm la.. will see how it goes..

tml going to tiger brewery .. lol .. drink beer.. free flow.. but cannot get drunk la.. haha... dunno whether it will be fun or nort.. hope can experience something great there... tml only got english lesson .. after that will be setting off to the brewery le.. will go until ard 6 ba.. haha.. quite long ar.. after that gonna rush down play bball .. haha.. it will be fun tml as many of them finish their A's le.. yeah!! happy for them... they finally free from studies le..lol.. for this while.. haha..

sianz.. i still got 3 weeks to go .. my holiday then come.. faster come la!! haha.. buay tahan .. today den got to know that my exam willbe a 6 day strectch thinggy .. wah.. means that saturday also ahve to come back and take exam . .which is ridiculous.. argH!! .. stupid school.. cannot flexible abit .. =x..
just came home frmo downstairs.. lainhong and jiting came to my area and have dinner.. den we play dota.. wah.. i lose.. sianz.. bu fu qi .. but nvm la.. tell myself jus a game... dun get so fed up over it.. haha. next time then win back lor..

stupid hotmail.. i needa do project and all the files in there.. i cannot access .. sianz.. how .. cannot even do man .. needa chiong liao ... zZZZ.. stupid la.. so fed up with the server.. kaoz... my com also deterioating.. must reformat soon le la... arGh!!!!!!!! =x

-YzW- great weekend awaits

on sAt. was actually v v tired.. coz din sleep and needa to go to skool for our sub-event. It was quite successful but i know i am damn tired .. lol.. after finish the event, it was raining again! .. hais.. den i quickly went home and get myself a nap as i have to go out in the evening at 6.. reach home around 3.. den quickly took a shower and slp till 6!

tat means. i am late!! wahahah.. was going out with emmie (my tutor) , ws , libing and yixin de.. but then the emmie says she cannot make it.. den wanna cancelled.. but in the end the rest still wanna go out.. den i bo bian lor.. when i was slping.. lianhong called me at ard 4? say meet 530 to go town .. den i say okok .. coz i v tired.. den i continue slping.. haha.. den zg call me again ask whether i meeting them or going with ws they all .. i say urh. together together la.. lol ..

As i was late.. i told them i will go town myself.. so i get onto 502 and went to town .. was late.. damn late actually.. den when i reach there.. there are many people already. Weisiong, lianhong, zhenguang, pearly, benedict, yixin. oh.. this means libing is later than me .. haha.. i met them at lido and we walk towards heeren to have our dinner at Vila'ge.. which previously know as MarchE la.. lol .. went in .. wah.. expect my dinner to be ex le.. lol .. so i have lamp chop at 6.80 plus a ham and cheese crepe at 7.80 but my crepe was halve with lainhong.. so cheaper.. lol ..

During the dinner.. libing came .. den i saw Jason too! lol .. so more and more people.. so after our dinner.. we went str to Far east shopping mall which is beside forum . along the way .. it was so fun to walk with them.. we play, laugh , joke , do lots of funny things .. haha.. damn cool but dumb in a way actually.. lol .. weisiong even walk on the wall.. lol..

we started to play pool.. only some of us play de la.. but den .. suddenly.. i saw a gal !! .. shit man .. it was yvonne.. and i try to avoid her .. coz i owe her a mcdonald meal.. -.-.. in the end i gave her $5 to buy drink.. lol.. sian la.. lol.. haha.. den after that jiting and jonathan together with eugene came.. lol.. so many people now.. lol .. after pool.. it was 10 plus.. so we went to play battlefield.. yx has left, libing and yvonne playing pool.. the rest went to play or watch battlefield.. half way thru our game.. zhenguang , pearly ben and eugene went off le..

we ffinished our game.. and manage to catch the last train.. on the train .. guess who i saw.. shiying!! lol.. she just off from her work.. so qiao rite.. lol.. den i hack care the rest and sit with shiying.. den we talk abt both her attachment hotel and shatec lor.. lol.. she seems tired.. jiayou k shiying... i see her like v jialat le.. but only 1month plus went by.. tinking that i have to do the same for a year.. woah .. sick man .. lol... din know my life will be so cham .. wahahha..not for now at least..

here comes the most happening and fhilarious part of the day.... it was jurong east mrt station.. so i bid farewell to shiying coz she is going to take the middle train .. which was the last train.. so i went to ws, jon , jason ,lh, and jiting.. and they were looking at something.. so i thought wad.. they told me there was a gal.. so i look and look.. suddenly.. behind me i heard 'ding dong, door closing. du du du du du du du du du du' den i look at jiting.. and say .. hey .. ur last train go le.. lol ... everybody looks at the train departing from the station.. even shiying who saw zhenguang who left off earlier at town was in the train laughing at jiting.. wahahaha.. den we all laugh at jiting.. he bo bian .. den we went to entertainment centre and play dota.. see la jiting.. look at gal somemore.. lol ..

after dota game.. i rush home to catch man u match which had already started.. it was still 0-0 .. so sianz.. at half time.. i went to bath.. and catch the second half.. at ard 70 min .. louis saha score! yea! lol .. so blackburn 0 - 1 Man u .. we regain top of the table again .. haha.. hmmm.. at this moment .. i tink arsenal win liverpool le.. haiyo.. haha.. none of my buisness.. =x

-YzW- changing blogskin soon..

Always anitcipate for weekends to come when i am still dwelling in the weekdays.. haha.. when it comes.. u plan to do lots of things... v. excited abt it.. but in the end after doing it.. nothing much special.. haha

on friday... wad a busy day it was.. school... went for driving lesson , den went to collect my pay.. den go to bball.. haha.. after that.. have dinner and went to jason hse to play mahjong .. yah.. again! .. lol.. the whole day moving abt and doing lots of activities which require so much energy.. lol.. of coz when i reach home i was dead flat on my bed.. lol..

saturday starts only at 3pm .. lol. .coz i only wake at at 3.. nth to do .. den weisiong call to go je and eat dinner.. den go lor.. haha.. after that play lan .. den go ws hse a while.. wah.. his room change formation le .. lol. become more spacious .. tink he likes it a lot.. haha.. after that i rush home for soccer matches.. lol.. man u against portsmouth.. and it was cool to see my fav team cruise to victory yet again .. hope it will last..

u guys shud be wondering do i spend my home weekend playing and sleeping? no need to do any work ? haha.. here comes the sunday where i have to get started to do my project and all my revision.. hrm.. actually not much revision.. mostly projects.. lol... and is so sian when doing it coz brain have to start working so hard that all the brain juices keep flowing ard the head.. lol..

yah .. monday no skool . coz is graduation day for some shatec courses.. guess is also a day to chiong project.. no matter what, must chiong le la... deadline is damn near.. bo bian ... things are not even half done yet..

Anyway , was wondering still got ppl reading what i post not.. lol.. mayb becoz no pics that;s why boring.. so wordy rite ... =)

-YzW- chiong project..

Nov

- Pri school End-Year Exam
-Secondary school Holiday
-O lvl
-A lvl
-Poly school still on

What abt mine? lol.. it is going to be a damn busy and stressful month for me.. have tons of projcet to finish .. and some not yet even started and is due in like 2-3 weeks time.. shit man .. really don't have the mood to do projects.. but what can i say , it's must! oh shit.. just remmeber got homework to do.. but book left in the locker in school.. lol.... tml kanna liaoz.. =P

Hmm .. today was a quick day coz lesson only starts at 245.. wake up ard 10 plus and went do BBDC for driving lesson.. after that have a quick lunch before heading to school. So there was only one lesson and a test after that. A quick test , and went home in drizziling weather. Reach home then do nothing and play winning eleven le.. Been dota-ing consecutives for 3 days le.. lol.. though LAGGY .. but still play.. wahahah.. worse is johnny , he couldn't finish even 1 game.. always lag out.. haha.. poor thing.. today record.. 1 min lag out liaoz.. haven even see the creep start fightin den "Skype-Pullplug has left the game' wahhaha..

Today driving lesson was quite bad actually. din concentrate den my instructor was not happy .. haha.. den i put in effort .. den he pleased.. it's tiring to drive k .. have to keep doing all those checking and changing thinggy . but bo bian.. wan to get a licence, better do it .. if not fail on the test date.. have to wait another 6 months.. which is what the hell!

Hmm ... so excited about all those events(fun) that is planned ahead. Jiting bbq , zg birthday , Genting trip , holiday , christmas and new year. Then back to skool again -.- .. haha.. anyway .. i am going to have fun after this stressful month.. so if anyone see me on the street.. do not irritate me by saying u r having holiday k .. or i make sure u spend ur holiday in hospital.. lol.. jk nia.. so excited!! lol.. jinhong and alan .. now having their papers.. jiayou k .. =D

today went to pass a registration form to joyce.. bball 3 on 3 de la.. lol. .she also interested.. tt 3on 3 challenge ex lehx.. 60 dollar per team.. i better register soon.. if not no vacancies le den cannot play .. 60 dollar only get jersey.. haha.. but this time is indoor la.. lol .. dunno can play well nort.. hehe..

Hmm.. i dun feel good man .. dun like being stress.. though it will push me to perform .. but i dun like the feeling of pushing me to the edge and force me to use effort.. hais.. plus many things aren't going my way.. it is just like something is pushing u at ur back , wan to push u off the edge.. and there is nothing to hold on .. hmm .. obstacles, problems, challenges, difficulties are meant to be there against us.. if i overcome it , i know i will grow into another level. so .. have to overcome.. lol.. if not down the edge and hit the rock below.. haha..

So long nv see all my sec skool frens le.. i mean 4e6 peeps.. all tagging and say wanna meet.. guess i'll be organising a bbq on dec 16 ba.. on a sat.. hope u guys can make it.. wun make it at the east.. better for it to be at the west.. all must come! by the command of ZhengWay! =D .. will inform u guys about the details when the date draws near..

Jian guo ni de mei , wo hai neng ai shui
Wo yi lu de zhui , que yi leng qui bu xin hui!

wahhaha.. jiting's fav song..

-YzW- guess he and i have a same prob now.. = \

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!