yea .. this is my 100th post... juz realise that .. lol....

However, my 100th post will be a v emo one.. coz things juz din turn out right for my today in anyway .

Woke up at 10.. have to do a 11 hr shift today .. frmo 1200 to 2300.. so tired, din slp well yet need to work for such a long shift.. hais... yah ... keep going to the rest area and rest.. and forget to bring enuff money out today .. sianz.. lunch and dinner din eat much .. hais.. feel so pathetic..

tt 11 hr shift was so tiring, and i need to rush back and watch the man u v arsenal match which i v anxious abt.. yea.. so when 10 plus.. hoping to go le.. den when was dismiss.. i rush home.. to my dismay .. man u lost.. haiz.. i dunno la.. things juz juz go wrong.. tml newspaper is going to be one tt i tell myself i nv wan to buy .. headline sure talk good things abt arsenal and shoot man u like fuck ... i dun wan to read things tt dun excite but agitate me.. knn.. starting to get sick le.. having back ache.. hais..

After that.. got into conversation with her, found out that she's .... ... .. . ya.. den sian la.. haiz.. have to be happy for her i guess.. but deep inside i know it's painful.. yea, jiting did console me telling me that i dun even know her much . but what i can tell u is that after this whole day of bad things happening.. this add salt to my wound.. i really was dealt with a great blow.. i was so sad that i was tempt to tell her.. jiting feels she is not worth me doing anything.. but feelings is feelings.. u can't deny it when u like some one.. no matter how long or how short.. when love happens it just happens.. everyone knows tt...

i tink things juz happen la.. i know its sux.. i have to bear with it .. right or wrong choices made, i have to bear the consequences.. life for me is like a ferris wheel.. when u reach the top , u always come down again .. when u r down , u build up ur confidence to go up again.. this cycle will nv ends... why? can't i have a ferris wheel tt only go up .. u know, i really feel there is something wrong with me in terms of my personality and behaviour.. i dunno.. i thot i am the same.. but inside me i feel so different.. hais.. no more confidence.. juz like a toilet bowl.. flush all my confidence off with juz a simple twist of hand..

i love her.. i know is weird , but it's jus there.. am i desperate? i dun tink so.. i tink i have other choices.. but i am not interested to be with someone i dun have feelings for... is not my standard or expectations is high .. mayb what some of u say... i always goes in the wrong time..

or mayb .. mayb God is showing what i will be without Him.. hais....

-YzW- what a day , and it's my 100th post.. =(

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!