We are entering the last quater of the year with juz few days to go. How will my schedule be like for the next 3 months? basically is course , studies, tests, projects, exams. Recreation will only come last minute planning, therefore not v sure. Anitcipating for the december holiday to come. Hoping to get a good rest and at the same time enjoy myself.

Driving lessons has been ok la.. but think need to wait for a long queue before i can take my final theory test. bo bian have to wait lor. AFter that can book for my TP exam le.. hope can pass final easily la. lol ..

This term my studies should be a busy and hectic one, as usual. lol .. with lots of big project, big modules that i have to put in effort on . If not going to do well , will be a v sad thing to do ba. lol... so i will put in extra extra effort to it , coz after that tt 1 month i know i have nothing much to worry about ba.

Hmm.. jiting , ws and jon went to malaysia today ba, johorbahru to be exact. tink they went and play go kart. haha.. so exciting. but i have lessons tt's why nv tag along. They still have their holidays before their school start few weeks later. hais.. i wan to work, but realising that my timetable is so pack and not even enough time for me to play , where got time to work .wondering how my finance can be cope. some more this dec we planning to go KL , yea , muz make a trip back to my hometown. i am missing my relatives .

Hmm.. thiS few days so many ppl birthday. Bernerd then yongtah den sarah. lol .. continouosly. lol .. so zai . today see yongtah being force to drink 18 cups of soft drink or mocha. lolx. tt 18 cups cost up to around 10.80

haha.. have been contacting her and went out with her with frens. Kind of easy to get along and talk and play with. she is out-going and sociable but somewhat cannot understand what is going thru her mind. She do things sometimes secretly which i find v mysterious and not to my liking. Coz this always keep me in suspense which in turn makes my mind anyhow tink .. wahahahh..

However, yea she got a bf .lol .. all i can do is to be a fren to her ba .. cannot expect much from her as fren can only go to a certain limit. i cannot tell her anything coz she has a bf.. i cannot cannot cannot. lol.. hope she doesn't come to my blog. if not mayb we wun be talking anymore. i dun wish to wait or hpoing that she will break or wad. i juz wondering shud i juz move on with my life and not getting into another chance of being hurt . ? any comments or opinion of what i shud do?

-YzW- by the side

yea .. this is my 100th post... juz realise that .. lol....

However, my 100th post will be a v emo one.. coz things juz din turn out right for my today in anyway .

Woke up at 10.. have to do a 11 hr shift today .. frmo 1200 to 2300.. so tired, din slp well yet need to work for such a long shift.. hais... yah ... keep going to the rest area and rest.. and forget to bring enuff money out today .. sianz.. lunch and dinner din eat much .. hais.. feel so pathetic..

tt 11 hr shift was so tiring, and i need to rush back and watch the man u v arsenal match which i v anxious abt.. yea.. so when 10 plus.. hoping to go le.. den when was dismiss.. i rush home.. to my dismay .. man u lost.. haiz.. i dunno la.. things juz juz go wrong.. tml newspaper is going to be one tt i tell myself i nv wan to buy .. headline sure talk good things abt arsenal and shoot man u like fuck ... i dun wan to read things tt dun excite but agitate me.. knn.. starting to get sick le.. having back ache.. hais..

After that.. got into conversation with her, found out that she's .... ... .. . ya.. den sian la.. haiz.. have to be happy for her i guess.. but deep inside i know it's painful.. yea, jiting did console me telling me that i dun even know her much . but what i can tell u is that after this whole day of bad things happening.. this add salt to my wound.. i really was dealt with a great blow.. i was so sad that i was tempt to tell her.. jiting feels she is not worth me doing anything.. but feelings is feelings.. u can't deny it when u like some one.. no matter how long or how short.. when love happens it just happens.. everyone knows tt...

i tink things juz happen la.. i know its sux.. i have to bear with it .. right or wrong choices made, i have to bear the consequences.. life for me is like a ferris wheel.. when u reach the top , u always come down again .. when u r down , u build up ur confidence to go up again.. this cycle will nv ends... why? can't i have a ferris wheel tt only go up .. u know, i really feel there is something wrong with me in terms of my personality and behaviour.. i dunno.. i thot i am the same.. but inside me i feel so different.. hais.. no more confidence.. juz like a toilet bowl.. flush all my confidence off with juz a simple twist of hand..

i love her.. i know is weird , but it's jus there.. am i desperate? i dun tink so.. i tink i have other choices.. but i am not interested to be with someone i dun have feelings for... is not my standard or expectations is high .. mayb what some of u say... i always goes in the wrong time..

or mayb .. mayb God is showing what i will be without Him.. hais....

-YzW- what a day , and it's my 100th post.. =(

woke up early in the morning, had to go for drving lessons.. lol.. today is the first time i meet my actual instructor and he was damn cool lor.. lol.. he was previously a private instructor and he come and help bbdc, den in the end lol, he tell me all the bad things abt the bbdc.. lol... and i feel that what he says is true.. i feel so blessed to have him as a instructor la.. lol..

after that , went to buy carrot cake and went to jiting hse .. lol. .together with a soya bean drink .we ate out breakfast.. lol.. after that , i was so tired tt i sleep in his hse for quite some hrs.. lol... we play dota one after another, haha.. yea.. we are dota freaks.. lolx.. dunno wad to say sia.. addict to it le la.. dunno why.. bUT after so long still so no0b.. lol.. dunno how to improve..

hmm. .. have to rush to the fullerton hotel to do my shift.. lolx.. .and it was another usual work i do.. stand , help a bit, dinner , stand off.. lol.x.den went to chevron for the shuqun chalet.. most of the flingster member were there..lol.. me and jason help to bbq. been long since i last stand there and help ppl and bbq.. damn ht man .. den some of us take out our shirt.. .then i realise that i am growing a bit fat.. lolx... mayb .. mayb not la.. lolx... .mayb is a beer belly.. lol... .after the bbq.. .we went to toh guan and drink .. while drinking, we talk abt our future ideas.. abt opening a jamming studio .. lolx... depends on how things go la.. it is not easy to start a buisness.. i am interested but i dunno whether i am commit... drink quite an amt.. but not drunk .. juz a bit seh only.. lolx... still sober hoh.. i not lousy de la.. apple a bit drunk .. lol.. =X..

hhmm... mizz her so much .. dunno why even though things is not helping the situation.. as i tink abt her, i start to like her more.. i really dunno did i make a wrong choice to like her.. actually is din make any choice.. is my feeeling which start to fall in love with her.. but however, i tink she got better choices... i dun tink i am a guy which can give her what she want.. some of u may tink i haven even tried.. but i feel , yah , i dun have the capablilties to do it.. unless something or some one boost my confidence.. i dunnoo.. i really dunno what step to take now.. she even ask me what to do in her relationship ... haiz... she treat me like a fren ba.. she juz contact me when she need.. i have lost the war , i dare to say i dominate the war in the early part of my life.. but now... i am losing each better after another.. .phew.. i juz miss her lots.. anyone can tell me what to do.. i dun really know her quite long.. but i know my feelings for her is there... if u wanna tell me to give some time to sort out mayb is it a crush or wad, i am v afraid that she might be attached by then .. i dun wan tt to happen.. i wan her to be with me.. but i know the chances are so minimal that it is hard to predict.. any opinions? tag.. thanks..

thanks ber for tt support.. hope u are doing well in ur imf too.. see u soon when skool reopen ...

-YzW- her ..

wonder shud i tell her my feelings for her. or shud i keep quiet abt and let her be... i really dunno.. if i really tell her abt it, she will be suprise i guess..coz i dun tink she know much abt me, nor does she wan to know abt me.. guess in her heart there is other ppl which is more impt to her..

i dunno whether tis is a crush or wad.. juz feeling in love with someone.. i know mayb if its a crush , tis feeling will go away soon.. but i am always tempt to contact her.. not v sure why .. well.. mayb like what jiting says, she dun ususally go for serious relationship.. yea.. probably. from the way she behave.. get to know her just, but feel like it's been quite some time.. dunno why my mind keeps tinking of her whole day.. i know i can only contact her only abt a few mins a day .. sometimes not even able to contact her.. she seem interested in other things instead.. i guess i really dun understand her tt much .. mayb not even a little. i wan to know her more.. but how.. i have minimal contact with her.. i am afraid to take any further steps as i scare i may go too far off.. i scare she will aviod me ..

doesn;t seem to be the last time zW. . who always dare to do things ,.. now.. juz like a coward .. a person with no faith.. a person who lost his courage .. why have i change into like a loser... why can't i be a winner easily.. i always try to optimistic but things always turn out the other way .. not even.. and i emphasize not even a single time i suceed..

God has it's reason for this. i dunno.. i guess i have to find out from Him..

-YzW- heR, and still hEr evEn iF it isn't hEr

Another day has pass for the imf thinggy .. lol.. hmm ... getting quite use to it le la.. play around , hang around , look around, help around.. okok .. i bet u guys are bored abt listening to my sharing of imf.. let's talk abt other thing eh?

hmm... my love life sux. wahahha... interesting? or nort? let me elaborate a bit .. abit only nia.. kk.. why nort i summarise with 5 words...

Flirt=Regret=Single=Reject=Failure
juz miss her , but realise dun understand her ..

hmm.. tt's abt all ..lol ... those who know me well understand wad i am talking..

next topic..
this year.. hmm.. Chalet for 4e6? i not so sure how many will turn up .. 4e6 people.. tag me if u wan chalet k.. i try organise.. remember my enthu in keep the spirit there.. lol.. still miss u guys.. juz that i have too much thing to do.. and moreover, it's not me who is the only busy one.

eg. mf = a lvl, steph= attachment, chun= juz came back from oversea, kaixin= monkeying ard, julye= work? mil= ??? , ben= whoelse, jiayong= clubbing?? lol.. , yi= hiding in tortoise shell, jiting= dota and work, dingyang=??? , so .. lol.. nt my fault k .. lol .... will get back to u guys de la.. will hang out as usual.. take good care guys..

hehe.. looks like all my connections with ppl have decrease .. i tink , hmm.. yea, this people have thier own lives to live, and mayb they are getting on with it which cause changes in them. all the best gals and guys.. achieve big in life..

anybody out there who thinks u understand me the most? tell me k .. i dun even understand myself.. what i wan , what i am going for, why i behave this or that.. who can tell me man .. lol.. weird zhengway .. no one can predict what will dis guy do.. but one would know he is still trying to get himself going.. need the right influence and motivation..

-YzW- let it be, nth i can do .. she's out of league

Today went to watch the movie the little man .. wahaha.. yup.. one of my two off days during the imf period.. phew.. tt means... later i am going back to fullerton and stand again .. sianz.. lol .. no choice ma.. lol... .hmm.. .juz found out tt driving lessons abt 30 lessons.. which is so so ex.. lol... i have only done 2 lessons... but book another 6 le.. lol.. sianz la.. dunno when den can finish it quick.

Hmm.. we were thinking where to have our movie watch .. was thinking jp .. but i suggested let's go town instead of jp .. i dun feel good abt going jp today .. haha.. only Jiting knows why .. hmm.. so me jiting and zhenguan took train there and have our dinner at yoshinoya.. cheap food.. coz student meal .. lol.. den came lianhong and jonathan .. and we are all set and ready to watch tt movie

Hmm.. the movie was freaking funny. lol.. i was so afraid to watch at first coz i saw the rating for the movie on the newspaper only give 1 and a half star out of 5 ... woah ... but i was a funny and good storyline .. guess the person who rate it has a different type of taste of shows.. i feel that the ratings may mislead some people like me who like to watch this kind of shows.. haha.

din recieve the reply.. kinda depressed.. only recieve a sms from MOS.. lol.. tml got event.. but i am working and even if i am not .. it may not be a good idea to go .. lol.. so for the whole day i been waiting.. but as expected... nothing came .. so i went home and get myself ready for the champions league match .. hehe.. juz miss her lots..

-YzW- 6day straight work! =(

Imf has started.. for the first two days , it was kinda boring... yea.. and today is the 2nd day, so i can't share anything interesting with you . lol.. however, i was slacking la.. lol.. got a xchange room ma.. den is like can go there rest as and when u like.. lol.. sit there drink coffee and tea... eat biscuit.. like nobody bisnes lor.. lol... hmm ... 8 hrs.. pass quite slow actually.. nth i can do except watchin the people walkin in and out the hotel.. lol..

always anticipating the 11pm to come.. lol.. coz it's time to go home.... lol.. yea .. for the two days.. after work went to find the gang.. and i suddenly feel something weird abt them .. mayb i am tinking too much , being sensitive.. haha.. not sure. but yea.. still hang out play dota.. drink chivas that jiting brought back.. lol..

hmm.. kinda can't anticipate my mood , not say mood swing la.. but when things juz irks me.. i tend to get piss off.. but tt pissing off action only inside my heart itself.. i dun show it off coz it will not be a good thing... lol.. yea.. hate it when ppl or things irks me .. lol.. but i am keeping my cool towards people ..

Hmm.. one thing to mention is.. trust.. i know there is some one out there or mayb even more do not sometimes trust the words i say .. and they become hypocrite and act as if i am lying to them.. they pretend nth happen .. yea.. tt irks me too .. haiz.. sometimes being a joker is not a good thing.. people dun trust ur words even though u say the truth.. i like being a joker.. lol.. the reason is becoz i like to see people laugh.. like them to hang out with me.. like them to enjoy my prescence.. but now some of them tink i m a clown to them.. haiz.. do i deserve that?

sincerely speaking.. i have fell in love with this gal.. not say very deep.. which only happen recently.. kinda like her characteristic and the way she portray herself.. but i dare not attempt to go for it anymore.. blows after blows have been dealt to me .. i have no courage or confidence at all.. plus i know she is popular.. and she have a large circle of frens .. what can i do .. ?? mayb i shud juz treat this as a crush ba.. haha..

-YzW- dun wan to get the same situation

Yea... no more stress regarding exams... and i am on my holiday .. eh.. sort of holiday with only fri sat and sun .. lol.. meaning this monday i am going to start my imf.. sianz rite.. lol.. those poly student got a month or more of holiday and i have 3! .. lol . nvm , dun wan complain.. juz cherish mine can le.. whahhaha..

hmm... today went for driving lessons again and it was freaking cool!!! i drove outside the circuit onto the main road.. and so shiok man .. wahahah.. can see people walking around.. pedestrain .. zebra crossing.. lucki din knock anyone down. .wahahah.. it was cool .. really cool.. cool till i make lots of mistakes.. wahahaha.. din stop infront of the stop line.. lol.. lucki no car.. den it was like scary lor.. the trainer was patience with me.. luckily.. if not he will not let me drive i tink. .wahah..

Hmm.. so to summarise the whole term... it was hectic with projects.. modules are not easy at all .. need to listen in class and memorise lots of things.. but i hope i can aheive good grades to push my gpa.. yea.. lol.. however, doris and lan are too hardworking and smart.. i can only see their back .. they are side by side .. lol.. however, good course tutor we had.. and we are going to have him again next turn .. which is good.. coz he knows what we need but also maintain a good relationship with us.. he will not let us climb over his head but at the same time.. give us what we need in our studies..

hmm .. Manchester united won 4 out of 4.. and tt's 12 point .. yippy.. wahaha.. shiok hoh.. man u fans like me are all excited about this season.. at this moment la.. coz they are going to face arsenal on the next fixture.. but Rooney and scholes is back.. yea..

k la.. imf coming means long working hours.. means cash !! lol.. but thinking shud i invest the cash in my drving or use it for my recreational activities.. lol.. such as.... CLUBBIN.. wahhaah... but my lovely jiting is gone at taiwan to participate in the DAO BIAN .. lol.. no la.. he's on holiday with his family.. at taiwan .. hmm.. lots of ppl call him buy thing .. kinda miss him..lol.. in the sense of less people for dota.. less peolpe to go out with.. less everything less.. coz he revolves my life as a v good buddie of mine..

hmm.. kinda feel so weird when things came into my mind.. sometimes.. my heart too.. kinda feel lost about what to do next... about what will happen .. do not dare coz many times i have been defeated.. not in terms of effort.. coz i know effort will bring results.. but not in some aspects.. confidence is good but not in that aspect. lol.. yes.. love.. but seeing lianhong and apple , i feel happy for them.. haha.. but when ppl ask me do i have gf.. i say no v proudly.. mayb becoz people always thot i MUZ be attach.. haha.. in any case.. i let feelings and god to take over tt aspect.. =)

-YzW- miss jiting.. lol .. sound so gay.. =P

haha.. .same old sequence again... it's exam time! .. and a time for me to be stress.. lol.. though not as stress as previous term, but the need of memorising and time-usage is so taxing for my life.. lol... but bo bian .. lolx.. want good result , muz work hard.. no pain no gain rite.. lol...

today got ppl say i kiddy.. i behave like small boy .. lol... die la.. i still haven mature in terms of my behaviour eh? sad sad.. cannot la.. muz be gentleman la.. lol.. wan to change but always drop inside situation where i suddenly behave so immature.. wahahahah.. but sometimes is good to be immature.. those ppl around u will enjoy ur actions and immatureness...

Hmm.. guess i have to adapt myself to the circumstances that is going to happen around me. if ppl wants be to be immature, den i'll be.. if not. i be a gentleman which i find it important to be one. lol .. muz grow up like a man ... haha.. frens ard me can help me improve.. give me feedback and suggestion hoh.. i am 18 le.. muz be one tt looks like 18 at times!! haha.. yah. .at times..

Hmm... got 6 papers in 4 days... 4 which i can say i have confident.. but after some revision.. looks like only 1 or 2 can handle only.. lol .. nvm .. i can do it de.. muz have confidence.. after this 4 days.. IMF coming up .. but in between that.. i wan to enjoy myself.. hehe.. hope there is time for me to enjoy la... this term is quite draining in terms of projects.. all mounting up over one and other.. i will conclude abt this term acheivement... as my performance of my exam is not over yet.. which is bascially the most impt part of the term.. haha... i wan my GPA to increase to 3.7 or even 3.8 if possible.. lol .. =X ...

yesterday i juz make a decision of not intefering someone life anymore.. she is a lovely gal but i guess her attitude towards me is somewhat sarcastic and unpleasing in my point of view.. i dun care anyone disagree with my opinion abt her coz she already did those actions to me.. all the best to her life.. now i know sometimes i over-estimate myself to go concern for them.. i am wrong too .. tt's why i have to change in some aspects of my behaviour.

A qns for all my close frens... am i a guy who talk without thinking twice.??? if u dunno the answer.. den is weird le.. haha.. i am a guy who talk without thinking.. i talk rubbish!!! i talk nonsense and say lame or even cool jokes to entertain ppl... no one take my words seriously de... as they know i dun meant it.. for my close frens la.. unless i am dead serious.. then they will know what i say is true.. if not, if not i am not serious abt what i say to u ppl , coz my words can be hurtful, insulting or even harmful to your ears.. but for those who understand me well , they will juz play along with me.. coz they know i dun mean it.. and what i say is for entertainment purposes..

I dun insult ppl family, or even say stupid things tt really is no way to be call a joke.. even if i say it .. i know it and i will apologise.. so i guess i have to apologise to those who are hurt by my words... i am truely sorry .. i guess i have to understand someone better in order to talk open jokes .. really sorry ...=D ...

go study le!! lol..

-YzW- Aiming all As or B+!!! =P

Hey guys, September 1st is Pearly's birthday . Know who she is? haha... she is the hmm... how should i say ... yuhua one la.. one batch older than mine. lol..

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Happy bird day to u k pearly.. take care and enjoy ur start of ur 19th year..

-YzW- watch the VIDEO

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
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