Writing this entry at 4 am .. lol ... dunno why have the urge to write now .. mayb becoz sometings that are stuff in my heart need to be release ba..

anyway, later at 10.30 .. having the stupid eng test i guess.. was wondering how will i fare man .. lol .. .hmm.. shud be ok la.. lol.. hope nth will go wrong. test and projects are all ard me right now.. bo bian la. lol... is a must to do it ma..

Went to eat steamboat on national day.. switching from bugis steamboat to marina on that day itself.. din manage to see fireworks.. but did enjoy myself.. lianhong zhenguang jiting wenhao guan soon weisiong and wen wen were there... haha.. marina is much more a better place for sdteamboat compare to bugis.. now i know where to go next time le.. lol.. hmm ..

wEll.. let's get to the main point of this entry ba.. was going to slp yesterday yet went to view some of my memories item . meaning things that ppl have given to me.. well.. after i go thru some of those things.. juz found out that this person has really put in so much effort.. it was till yesterday de i realise how much effort she put , how much time she gave .. how much trouble she took to be with me.. yet at that time.. or even till yesterday.. i din know abt it.. was quite disappointed with myself.. why have i hurt her over and over again .. why am did i not appreaciate wad's there for me. after every pages i go thru .. the more regretful i got.. those things she did for me was what i shud nv deserved. now i start to regret.. start to think .. why did i not cherish.. i know what's over is over.. and probably she is having a good life right now.. but how i wish i have made the right decision.. i have given her a bad bad relationship.. i have treat her unfairly..

bygones? nah.. if i just treat it as bygone then i would been a even more bastard.. i dunno what i can do now to really be fair to her.. feel so bastard.. juz because i was flirt.. i have hurt her.. juz becoz i wanted something she can nv give, i forgo what only she can give.. i nv thot what i will lose when i do it.. till yesterday .. everything juz came back to me and point at me saying 'zw have made the wrong choice'

well.. hope to see her again .. she's probably attach anyway .. i dunno what i can do ... but deep inside me i juz wanna thank her for what she have done for me during the time we were together.. what she gave me is consider the best relationship i have.. i really appreciate the love from her.. i wish her all the best in her stuides and life ba.. =)

-YzW- regretful

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!