little did i know that things turn out this way.. nv expect , nor even think abt it at all ... ya, mayb things happen juz like when u din even notice. and dun even have the chance to prevent it.. but what happen has happen.. but why muz things that happen comes ard and haunt u.. why? do i really deserve what i get? mayb i really do.. but i feel is a bit too much for mt to bear.. i am not saying i am weak or sth.. juz saying that this things are not favourable in my life..

guess i gonna thrash all the things now.. and i am thrashin it out in a fine and cool mood, not emo-ing .. dun worry.. =) .. juz wanna let some of my frens know what's been happening recently.

Mayb i shud start with the good events, Hmm.. basically all my test, i feel that i did pretty well.. though the results are not out yet, i guess i can at least get a B+ .. hoping so.. haha... IMF coming means income coming.. haha.. earning money .. yea.. hope that there are tips for me to get.. though no holidays but i tink this experience is worth covering the holidays.

Now more on the negative part.. Projects are dued next week.. all the groups seem to be struggling.. haha.. i am the 1st grp to present.. but i tink we can do it.. my grp has the ability to do it.. so i have to make sure everything goes well.. everything is covered. evertthing is smooth.. juz that the responsilbilty is giving me some pressure.. hack care la.. once over, it's accomplished. but i muz make sure it is finished with style and not failure.

Well, seen her blog again , though it's been quite a while already, but the thorns still remian in my heart, this thorns seems to be seasonal .. it comes only when it feel like.. always wanted to remove this thorns in my heart, but the thorns are already been stuck deep.

One of the reason of me not having a gf mayb is because of what i always been thinking abt what i really shud have. or mayb what i have miss out. i know love cnanot be force, love is selfish , love is only for 2 .. that's why it took me so long and mayb even longer to find another one i really really will fall deep in love with. what have happen in the past are juz bygones, though the thorns are the bits and pieces left , it only pricks me for a while. while i am no longer as disappointed as once was.

frenz are always the one of the most impt factors that keep my life going.. but to my dismay , once was my best fren , is now no longer the best .. but right now he is still one of my good frens.. but the feeling of him being my parnter, my best buddie, my best brother is no longer, i told him , and he tell me he do not wan to drag in the past. so i guess he's right, i shud not intervene his way of living , his life, mayb i shud juz forget abt having those good times where 2 of the best bro come together and have fun . really fun .. now he has his aim and motivation. i have no right to restrict it.. i have my own life too .. i can understand what he is going thru . mayb being juz frens and not BEST frens is enuff. as no one is need to commit to another. yea, life do change.. some times dramtically. well .. i guess we have reach another stepping stone of our life, we have to move on. i have to let my wildfulness go.. it's time for me to move on as well i guess.. all the best bro .. u can acheive big in ur life..

other than that, sometimes i feel i have put in too much effort in doing things , and people juz take it for granted. they juz treat u as a neccessary fren and not a special one. guess my expectation is too high eh? haha.. we shall see..

i wanna change.. change for the better.. change for my ambition and my aim in life. so dun be suprise if u can't see the same zhengway or wayne anymore. now is the beginning of the evolution of my young adult life. u may not notice, but as time goes by . i will be a different person for my future perspective. =) i wanna be a gentleman yea.! haha..

-YzW- stay coolz even though it pricks

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!