the YzW world

.Sunday, July 30, 2006 ' 2:38 PM Y

pon...and...zi

wo00o... went to dxo and club.. song ar.. 1st time, went with jiting , lianhong, jonathan fedrick and shahibu.. haha.. me n jiting was late, so we went queuing , but of coz we cut queue.. lol.. went in and the rest say they wan to start to drink ... there are lots of ppl man .. over 700 PAX.. muz squeeze thru the crowd.. dxo consist of 2 level ... 1st level where the main bar and the dance floor is.. accompaid by a pool table.. 2nd lvl where there is lots of seats, with a balcony of a side bar with a stage for band performace..

The band was great.. the singer has got what it takes man..respect for his skills, respect for his unique voice.. after that we bought a jim bean black! and we start drinking... drink drink drink . i dun feel anything lehx.. lol... nothing much .. of coz we drink wither mixer which is coke.after the drink .. .went to DANCE.. .who00o0o0... so crowded, hot but fun , the music was great, the tempo was fast and the heat was up ! abt the dancing.. go experience urself, no elaboration! haha..

Jiting saw his priskool frens den they dance together hahha.. jiting knows what to do man !! lol... guess his flingster lvl grew lots ... mayb i have to learn eh? so funny lol... mayb he is high la.. i not sure... i dun feel any effect but enjoyed my self i guess.. Jiting is high man
After that reach home at 5am .. went to slp .. got to help my mum the next day !! haha.. slp slp slp.. tt's how my first clubbing experieince? so no foto arh.. but this is only the beginning of my clubbing life!! gotta jio more ppl go le..

ZHEN GUANG.. I'M SORRY!!! WHEN U ARE 18.. I MAKE SURE I ACCOMPANY U TO CLUB!! I TREAT U !! ONS?

-YzW- clubBinG ~~~

.Monday, July 24, 2006 ' 12:24 AM Y

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I am 18th! finally.. yeah.. this entry will be abt my birthday chalet!

Basically, most of my good frens were there... though some of them cannot make it.. but it's alright as they have things to do...
Basically there is those above in the pic.. haha.. and zg, wenhao , guan soon, mag , ziheng, ting ting, ben , michelle(ben gf), lianhong, weisiong, jonathan , jason and his gf, and and ad, wah ..test my memory.. aiya.. to those who were there.. THANKS so much .. everyone of u is impt to me.. u guys make my 18 birthday worth remembering..

tt's my birthday cake. yea! haha.. it so touching when everyone is singing birthday song.. weEee.. haha.. but thanks mag for the christian birthday song.. i appreciate it lots..

zg and lianhong together with my parents went down early to the chalet to help me.. thanks mum , she made lots of good food which was appreaciated by my mum .. a lot of good comments, at ard 9 , everyone starts to arrive.. and slowly the place get packed.. and.. . ... . . ..

WE STARTED DOING FRIED MARS BAR!

wahahah... edible k !! dun even think abt doubting our skill ... lol....
we can cook ! so can u .. wahahahhaah

during cooking, mich called, she arrived at bus stop.. den i ran there .. lol .. .she was with her bf.. haha.. after exchaging a few words, she gave me the present.. thanks wor .. (present pics all to be uploaded when lianhong pass me more of the pics) so guilty tt she have to take cab home in the end.. but i guess with the company of her bf, it shud be a romantic way home.. lol..

Hmm.. also wanna tanks minfeng.. my dear piggy.. lol ... she came all the way to chalet.. and without hlaf an hr.. she had to go coz she cannot stay over night. haiyo.. so guilty again .. luckily she still cheerfull .. lol ... thanks so much .. be ready for ur bdae.. though still long.. wahahhaa...

hm .. after that, we play cards games, actually is mafia.. lol ..a game tt i love to play .. some of them dun feel like playing but coz i like then they play along.. whaha.. aiyo .. i also nv say muz play ... in the end 18-20 of us played MAFIA! .. that is so many ppl... but me and jt die so fast... coz of stupid villages.. after that.. quite late le.. some ppl went to slp . some went to study , some play guitar.. the rest? games with ALCOHOL!! woo0hoo..

many ppl got punished, many ppl drink .. but no one drunk... surpirsingly .. wahaha...
too bad tt time no body take pic le.. if not can post.. haha... but jinchang surpise me with the colour of his body after he drink... v v v v red.. scary sia.. lol... soon after that at 730 .. xinyi julye steph and some ppl go lo.. chun hui also ..

after at 10.. we check out and we went to white sands to have our luinch , pearly came and gave me prezzy too .. haha... thanks lot... after that benedict came to meet pearly, lol .. juz came from tekong. .lol ... we went home and i slpet.. kanna scold by yixin , she say cannot slp .. cannot waste 24 hr.. lol ... i hack , still slp .. lol ...

thanks so much for the ppl to attend the birthday chalet, thanks so much to those who sent me sms and wish me hapi birdday, thanks so much to those who still remember me , thanks so much to to all who have played a part in my life.. i tank tank tank tank all of u ..

-YzW- to be continued

.Friday, July 21, 2006 ' 12:32 AM Y

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tHis is The last time i blog when i am 17 yrs old.. the next time i blog.. will be 19 .. lol.. no la.. 18 of coz.. woo00o0o... tml is going to be the day i will really enjoy myself.. though there is lots of things going thru my head.. my i know after tml .. everything will change.. my mindset will change... defintely.. tt's wad i promise myself..

bought everything at sheng song. .haha.. cheap man .. lol ... much more cheaper than the outside market.. bought drinks, food, chocs, plastic fork spoon bowl cup.. lots of things la.. lol.. my mum even bought a chopper and a broom .. lol ... tml my dad will be driving me there.. hope everything will be alright.. everything will be smooth...

hmm.. most of my best frens coming ba.. so i guess this is a good thing.. but for those frens that are not coming.. it's ok de.. i know u all are busy and couldn't make it.. as long as ur head got me inside can le.. lol ... can't wait for tml ... hmm.. lots of sabo and fun is going to happen .. die.. i think i will die in more than 100 pieces.. what do they have in mind man..

what happen i will let it go .. nth going to be going thru my head tml .. and everything will be gone like the wind .. yea! no more emo-ing .. no more sulky face.. no more bad habits... i wan to become a gentleman! wahahah.. i can do it.. i will do it. i must do it man! ...

hmm.. .not going to blog much .. juz wanna say sorrie to those suffered when i was in cold mode.. haha.. will not treat u all like tt le. hope u guys dun mind.. =D ..

-YzW- anticipating f0r tml!

.Wednesday, July 19, 2006 ' 1:22 AM Y

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juz 2 more days to the chalet.. 3 more days to my 18th birthday.. yet everything seems out of place.. my mentally and emotionally is not ready for this occasion.. why? i was v excited abt it last week .. but when the days drew closer.. it seems that things are not pretty going too well.. why i said that, simply be'coz the of the happenings for the past few days.

Shatec classmate if u read this entry , i am sorry , let me emo for once k .. lol .. rarely i will write emo things till this cham de...

hmm.. 18th suppose to be a signal of another step of life u are going to take.. but i somehow or rather is reluctant to take tt step .. though i am able to be expose to the adult enviroment already , but it juz seems that i have lots of things have not accomplished.. and worst thing is that for the past few days.. the failures keep repeating itself, telling me i have not succeed.. wtf.. am i really going to give up what i always try to arhcieve.. i no longer seems capable.. i seems so different from the past.. from a zw with pride.. to a zw with no confidence.. no guts.. no charm .. no nothing...

shud i be happy abt the change? being mature? or juz true failure.. i have tried to ask myself. but when things tt happen ard me keep suppressing my confidence.. i have nowhere to go except avioding and avoiding.. kaoz.. feel so gal now.. i am a boy ... soon a man! but why i am so weak ... i may be strong on the outside.. playing ard with frens.. taking bird language with all of u .... laughin all the while, do well in studies.. do well in sports... but when failure hit me... deep down inside me is this feeling of shame, feeling of not being victorious.. i am really hurt for the past one year... who ever and what ever had hurt me.. it juz gels altogether and become thorns.. a thorns of a rose.. beautiful on the appearance.. but when provoke.. it so pain tt i sometimes want to cry.. but i din .. coz i know no matter what i do .. things had happen .. mayb is juz tt i dunno how to let go .. let go?

i dun understand what's let go ... i know the word forget but not let go.. when u forget something, it juz means that u try to keep it out of ur mind... letting go is u want it to be out of ur mind forver.. but the forever is i can't let go of anything.. anything abt my past, when talk abt it.. i feel shame , i feel hurt , i feel depressed .. i feel guilty.. those happy and fame parts of my past is what i really have let go .. i feel aimless now.. coz whatever i aim , it's like out of reach .. why ?

Why.. ppl wan to provoke me when i din even care abt the matter anymore, why must the matter be raise again , u wan to win me? go ahead and win .. i am no longer a zw with fighting spirit.. i am juz a zw with a brave front.. trying to act like the past.. if u ask me abt the present, let me tell u tt i dunno what i am .. my life now is like a remote control.. doing things under situation and circumstances.. and not the drive that is inside me..

haiz.. talk so much .. still feel so stuffy inside.. i am going to wash my hands off them .. it's not a good thing to get involve.. ppl juz dun trust me enuff .. ppl feel that i am a person with no integrity. a person whom cannot be trusted.. a person juz a fren... talk to when needed i guess... no matter the effort put in , ppl put thier impression on what they tink or hear and not what u do.. they tink u are juz acting? let's juz face it, all of u have brought me fun and laughter, sadness and tears .. i wan to stop it rite here.. sorri .. mayb my thinking was wrong, but tt shows how lousy understandind skills i have..

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alright, =D .. emo finsih le.. i guess.. this friday gonna be a jovious occasion for me and my frens.. u guys better have fun or i will not have fun either... =) ...

-YzW- childish for the last few days..

.Sunday, July 16, 2006 ' 3:14 AM Y

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Due to some complaints about my font of my entries.. casuing hard to read effects.. so i decide to put all the words in white... haha.. sorry to cause any eye straining or any pop out eyes..

juz watch the potc today.. nv watch the first movie.. so kinda blur during the movie.. but it was a nice show.. with some comedy act and some scary and fierce fighting ba.. without a doubt this movie has a great mysterious storyline and a lot of twist in it.. those who haven watch it , hurry up go watch it! dun wait till the dvd is out den watch .. by the time ppl have already stop discussing abt it!! lol ..

today is a sporty day for... early in the morning go to NP to take part in the soccer 7 aside... with tony lianzhen hanafi ... for the grp stages.. we easily qualify to the semis.. but the waiting time for each match for a team is like hrs.. it's kinda long and boring.. when the time comes to 3.. i have another competition.. bball 3on3 at NP too.. i played with jinhong alan and leonx.. <-- lainhong.. haha.. den we played well and went into the semis.!! but lose out to a takawa team .. in terms of speed and ht.. so i need to rush back for soccer... which is the semis.. and when i reach .. our team have already lost.. so we can only settle for the third placing in the end..

Lizhen organise the soccer while kiantong the bball... both of them are very heartwarming in the sense they take care of us in terms of our needs and questions we have in the competition.. i myself think that both their events were successful.. though there are a lot of unforseen circumstances happen .. but they did well to control and manage it.. but lizhen delete me in msn ... @#$#@@#...

hmm ... my birthday coming!! yeah ... 18 soon.. not to remind u my bdae .. but to INFORM u abt the incoming chalet on the eve of my birthday .. if u are interested.. feel free to contact me 24/7 ... hmm ..make it 18/7 .. 6 hrs to slp .. lol .. hope to see all my frens there.. it will be a v memorable birthday if that happens.. but i am v afriad if overcrowd.. den the security kick us out.. lol...

those who read my blog.. tag!!!! so that i know who's interested in my blog.. lol .. not a must.. but a request made by me.. hehe.. by taggin .. i also can know how u guys are doing at this point of ur life.. so .. .tag .. lol ... =)

-YzW- strong and determined!

.Saturday, July 08, 2006 ' 3:47 AM Y

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hmm... today was a anticipated day, why ? coz it's friday! means rest and play on the weekends.. hmm.. went straight to zg hse after skool.. planning where to go .. and it took me abt 2 hrs.. from 630 to 830 when we finally decide to go westmall. At zg hse, played one round of dota with jt, also zg found a spare phone for me!!! song ar.. got fone le.. though is N2100 .. but come on.. can sms and call good enuff for me le.. hehe..

Me jiting and zg met up at west mall den we have our dinner.. in fact is my dinner.. both of them din eat much.. den we walk ard westmall ... walk into a shops selling mainly bags. saw sean there.. he change from bali thai to doing sales at tt bag shop.. hehe.. kinda weird but at least he is hardworking.. haha.. went to arcade for a while and decide nothing seems interesting..

ws called say jason and him at je. .so we decide to take a bus instead of train to get to je.. reach there 9 plus.. hmm.. den went to the je arcade.. and that's a much more better place for us to have fun.. tried to play the bball game.. we went berserk in the end.. half way thru playing arcade.. shiying came down to look for us.. surprising wor.. but in the end, she came on the wrong occasion again.. coz we went to play dota, cs.. which she find it bored again .. haha.. dunno lehx... mayb the things we do may not be her style of liking ba.. but mayb the things we chat abt suits her.. so mayb i tink i need to find the right occasion b4 letting her join us. if not both of us will feel guilty..

yeah .. my bdae drawing near.. hope can see all my close frenz there.. is one of the thing u wish to happen during ur one and only 18th birthday. i hope to see all my 4e6 buddies.. my hangout frenz.. bball frenz.. all this i mention are valuable frenz in my life.. and for those like shatec frenz.. frenz i knew outside.. u guys and gals played a part in my life too.. hope to se all of u there man ... gonna be a great day for me.. even if it rains.. i know my frenz will be with me .. wahahah.. confident eh? lol...

nowadays happier le.. go skool is not a boring thing, coz i learn and fight against challenges that i need to face in skool.. while i still be able to hang out with my frenz after my skool.. tired? not so.. compared to the outlet.. this is more of a ease life.. lol.. and u know wad.. i am going to put in extra effort in my modules this sem.. i know i can do well.. so i will do well.. muz raise my GPA above 3.7 !! o0ps.. lol.. can de rite?

-YzW- weekeNdS!! play play play

.Wednesday, July 05, 2006 ' 12:54 AM Y

pon...and...zi

arH!!!... boring.. back to sckool once again .. after england out of world cup... no interest in it le.. so better concentrate on my modules this term.. see the projects started to pilled up like a mountain.. seems like my july and august is nothing but stress with proj. haha..

Got back my progress report.. 3.60 GPA .. .not bad la.. but tink 4th in class.. haiz.. die la.. muz buck up to get scholership lehx.. lol.. dunno lehx... strive harder .. tt's why this term muz muz do well and slp less in class le.. lol... =x . Suddenly going back to skool so weird.. see all the new batches.. and they wil tink we are the new one.. lol.. coz we are not in skool when they step for thier 1st sems... so they will tink we are their JUNIOR .. but actually we are the SENIOR!!.. lol..

this few days do nothing but hangin ard lor.. today went to eat carl's jnr at marina Square.. saw AaRon Kok .. lol .. he chiong down escalater.. look at zg.. den go inside the car.. wawahahaha.. we all stun lor.. eating my burger then he walk past. lol.. tink he juz went for a open ceromony of her watch shop.. hehe.. lucky day for us .? perherps.. lost to jiting and lian hong in dota.. si bei buay song.. haha.. one day muz pawn him like nth..

today ger vs italy.. all the best to both teams ba.. i dun support any of them .. and i also dun tink i am going to watch ... tml going to play soccer with shatec frenz.. haha.. vs A class.. muahahaha... we will win ... we always win .. lol ... sianz... hmm... from today onwards mayb will blog less in terms of length of my entry .. coz i will be blogging at another blog lo0o0o.... hehe...

-YzW- take care everyone!!

.Saturday, July 01, 2006 ' 4:33 AM Y

pon...and...zi

After 4 tablet of panadol in 18 hrs.. nth seems to help.. still feeling v stuffy and v sick ... legs still pain and arm still no energy.. reluctant to see doctor .. 1) waste money .. 2) lazy .. 3) dun tink the sickness is tt serious... haiz.. but nth can help my uncomfortable feeling ..

Today went to the dentist.. paid 35 dollars.. sianz.. muz go for xray in order to get my braces done.. chunhui suggested tt i pluck my teeth out after my bdae.. coz.. take pic look nice.. hehe.. i din tink of tt till she tell me.. lol ... guess it is going to be damn ex.. 3000 for my braces.. 50+85 for some miscellinoues things.. lol.. spell wrongly..

went to meet zg at westmall.. walk walk for a while .. den head towards his home.. play some mahjong.. dota too... den all the gathered for the soccer match between the germans and the argentines.. wad a clash ... everyone was excited.. so full of enthusiusm.. haha... but i made a mistake by calling shiying to join us.. =( .. she dun like soccer.. den quite bored.. den i suggested play mahjong den she feel guilty tt we cannot watch soccer.. haha.. but in the end still play .. we also wan to play de ma.. even without her.. feel guilty of calling her to join us.. Jason , weisiong , zg, jiting, lianhong, alan , jinhong , calvin suprisingly , din miss out anyone rite? were there ... have a good time.. leave zg hse abt 4 ba.. so late.. i mean early in the sense..

now feel so sick tired , lack of rest, uncomfortable.. haiz.. jiting told me abt wad he saw today .. he suddenly feel so stress and remorseful .. i tink i shudn't have add salt to the wound.. i keep on teasing him.. though he play along, but haiz, i know deep inside him , the pain is getting deeper and deeper.. wad i can do is console my best fren , but however i add fuel to fire.. wad stupid thing i have done.. hate myself for my actions.. irritate ppl for nothing... getting hot tempered for nth.. tink i need to reflect on what is the best way to potray myself so everyone is not irritated by me.. and at the same time i am enjoying the frenz ard me..

frenz i dare and proud to say i have the best frenz i can have in my life.. but for relationship.. i have to admit i am not serious of doing well.. i am not stating tt i am flirt or wad.. my serious means tt i cannot get myself into a relationship where i feel most comfortable with... i tell myself mayb i can like this gal.. but when i thought abt it.. it doesn't seems appealing.. my type of liking are not the same as the gals ard me.. mayb except her.. but she's attached.. a guy tt she feel nice to be with.. sense of security ... fun and loving.. and the feeling he gave her is what she needs.. i am not looking them at a sad point of view.. juz idolising how lucky tt guy can be.. i am not sad of coz , i am juz feel lonely in terms of relationship... but.. i dun need tt i suppose.. let me juz stay with the benefit of being a single.. tt will do .. till a gal really can attract me and really make me go wild for her..

-YzW- <--recover soon la!!! lol.. =D