actually din feel like blogging.. but suddenly saw sth .. which seems to always happen to me.. felt rather sad.. in fact is v sad.. haiz.. hurt.. v hurt.. i know i have no right to complain nor say anything coz i din put in any effort.. but things turn out this way which really makes me feel lousy and weak ... haiz..

juz finish some dota game with jt wil and ben with his frenz.. was abt to slp .. checking out o scores of the world cup .. reading articles from net.. den browsing thru frenz blog .. and when i went to this blog.. haiz.. it makes me feel sad sad sad... she got a bf.. and it's like quite long le ba.. juz found out today .. din have a chance to ask her.. tink i rather pretend i din know.. now i feeling so so bad.. my day juz destroyed by those mushy words.. destroy by those caring quotes .. how i wish it was for me.. haha.. naive me.. i am still alone.. but now she's not.. she wun read my blog tt's why i dare to write.. to her mayb i juz a normal person in her life.. a fren who chat with her.. a fren who talk to when she's bored..

i know i din put in any effort coz i know it will take a lot a lot of effort to do it.. and she also say she do not wan to be attached.. but now she is and for quite some time.. i can do nth but pretend pretend and pretend.. am i going to really pretend nth has happen and my heart is empty.. no .. i dun tink so ... i cannot stand this kind of things happen once .. but now it seems like it had happen more than once.. but what can i do .. feelings can't be force.. if she is feeling v good with what she have now.. den i shud be a gentleman and really wish her happiness for whoever she is with.. i need to give my blessings and not hiding and cursin them.. she know wad she wans.. so i tink she found wad she wans.. for me.. wad i wan will nv be mine.. so will i wan anything in future.. nah.. juz live a simple life? is tt possible? hai...

is it better when ppl tell u the truth or u find it out urself.. for me.. both are hurtful enuff.. mayb they are right.. the truth always hurt.. trying to be optimistic but it juz drop my confidence when things turn out the other way... this entry is juz for me to fa xie i guess.. .after publishing , have to change and work full shift at rosette.. last day .. bad day .. long day.. today all my mind will be her her her with him .. it's going be hard for me... i know it will be.. nv have a chance to get some slp .. neither have a chance to to rest much.. yah , all my fault.. play more rest less.. have to admit.. no self-discipline.. i juz miss her.. but now .. i know i shudn't.. she belongs to someone else.. someone whereby i cannot compared to .. he is the right guy i suppose... lucky guy .. and for me.. let's see how today goes for me.. u guys wish me good luck tt i can survive today.. haiz..

-YzW- why?

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!