Haiz... so much things have happened since i last blog, sad things , happy things all stack up in december.. i dun remember there is so much event happen in my life before.. i dunno how to react to this type of things.. a new year a new beginning? i hope so .. i do not wan to dwell in the sad things that is currently occupied in my mind.

I went to see her before my trip to genting .. gave her present and talk to her, it was a very happy moment of coz.. able to be alone with her gave me the feeling of having her by my side, though tt is just my illusion but that was enough to make me enjoy my trip to genting..

it was great at genting coz it's my first time spending it with my frenz, jiting , weisiong, jason , lianhong , jon , zhen guang. we went to spa, clubbing, eat ,shopping but not playing the rides.. haha.. i wan to play but they didn't wan to i suppose..


On the third day, i receive a call from my dad, a very heartbreaking news, my grandma pass away, this is wad i say sad things, in my life i have never came across a death of my close relative, i know it was coming but not tt early..

so i went to my hometown from genting alone.. to attend my grandma funeral , i know the person who feel worst is my dad, coz my grandma dote him most, but there is nothing i can do at that moment..


now i came back to singapore and i know it's been long since i contacted her, and just now she told me she just wan to be frenz with me.. tt's also coming my way i suppose.. mayb i have no way of avioding it coz she really does not have any feeling for me.. i always hold on to the hope that i might have the chance .. but yet in my mind i have another thinking of she rejecting me..

now wad shud i do with my life? i only know wad eva i try to do best in , nothing yields from it, am i going to give up on her, how is that possible when i love her so much. a new year with all this events around my mind , i am struggling with my emotion.. i am ... but i just know that no matter how i try to change things, it only get worse... i have given up on myself, i have no idea wad is my next step. mayb i shud just live a life in a simple way, not aimin for goals and ambition but just be contended with wad i have..

-YzW- game over?

Yu Zheng Way, Wayne aka Eebah Eebah
Age: 20
Single
Going to Army!